alright so i made a decision a hot minute ago that i was leaving the therian community because it just sucks so uhmm but i do need some help from you guys <3 i've already confirmed that i indeed have these theriotypes: nubian lion / north african lion, american black bear, squirrel glider, and virginia opossum. see the list ? okay well, no feathers or birds in sight chat. though, more recently, i've been questioning if the squirrel glider is not what it seems. i've noticed with shifts and some short and slightly hard to remember memories, that there are some similarities with the squirrel glider and a bird. what i mean is that the memories are foggy and hard to tell if its a bird or mammal. a couple things that are very similar right off the bat are green trees, gliding ofc, being in the air, climbing or sort of hopping, etc. but. i've never seen my own tail nor my own claws / paws within these memories and shifts. neither have i ever had a larger connection to the gliding squirrel. recently, i've been doing research for a project in school of mine and stumbled upon an image of a madagascan owl, specifically a baby / young one. for some reason, i couldnt stop staring at it. it wasnt like awe or me thinking it was a cool animal i just... ? it was like i was staring in the mirror, obsessing over it. i went down a deep rabbit hole, trying to figure out just what type of owl it was. i got so frustrated that i couldnt find it. yet, something tugged and nagged at me. i like just HAD to figure out what the species of owl it was. then i did. i felt like i could breathe, honestly. but i only felt it when looking at the baby owl, not the adults. they didnt feel like me, more like a longing or guilt? like maybe in a past life i didnt make it to that age? . . . the problem is i dont know if i was mistaken about my own theriotype or i just like the animal. i have seen streaks of white and grey in prior memories and dreams but with the amount of research i did into my theriotype, i was so so sure it was a squirrel glider. this has been causing me slightly dysphoria and i've been slightly obsessing over figuring out what happened and why i felt that way. idk, can someone offer some advice? im usually the one who offers it up but im at a loss for words.
