my meds ran out i was acting really weird and i didn't know why, now everything is a lot darker, i changed everything again, wish i dint, but its to late for that, i don't know what I'm going to do, i cant get more, my parents said i wont need them anymore, they felt so good thoooo. everyone im around is so happy and getting there wishes and desires, while i gamble everything and lose. i try to be the life of the party, so everyone likes me, so everyone wants to stay, and wont leave me, but i dont think the trick is working anymore, people look at me weird , i dont have the desire to draw, i feel like everything i thought i was better at than other people i just lagged behind, an became the worst. i cant sing a pitch, and cant roll on a drum, a cant draw a strait line for sakes.
im probably going to deleat this project anyway, i cant handle any backlash right now, lord knows what might happen
