oc story collab with @ROACHWARTOOTH TW: death, cussing, horrible typing/grammar <////3(I'm so tired bro you guys don't get it) Characters Noah Monet Calypso Gunner Noah slammed the door to his car at this time he wanted nothing to do with that band he calmed his nerves and started the car with no destination in mind the moment he got out of the small driveway he sped of to the first derecion that came to mind clearly not knowing what he was going to do or were he was gonna go after 10 minutes of aimless driving he came across the place he hated most and the place he swore never to go back to, the cemetery, he slowly parked the car and got out feeling the cold night wind blowing through his long hair and clothes he always loved that feeling of the meloncholic coldness as he walked closer to the gate it was locked as he exspected so he did the closest alternative he climed it ofcourse he hadnt jumped a fence since he was 21 but he still knew how as he climed over the gate he was wary of the sharp decorative spikes trying not to get stabbed by them but altimatly missing his footing and falling arm first on to the grass well atleast he was in he sat there for a moment letting the pain settly in before standing up and wiping the dirt off of his clothes he didnt want to do this but it was all he could think about doing so he made his way. As he walked in the cold he came across the grave and tombstone he never wanted to see for the west of his life “Jean Monet 1975-2016” his dad noah couldn't help but to get angry standing there in the scilence staring at the ragged rock he finally spoke out of anger “Why- just why, why did you do all those horrible things to me, i was a kid, what in the entire world did you gain by hurting a child if you hadnt i would have never became this way i wouldnt be this way i wouldnt have so many regrets in my life” noah stood in the cold for another moment before speaking up again “F██-k you Jean…” then continued walking to the place he truely wanted to be and sat down on the cold grass by the tombstone “Tomas Conti 1998-2022” noah sat in the quiet before talking “H-hey Tomas… I know i haven't visited as often as i said i would especially since the last time i visited was before i went to the mental hospital which was around 3 in a half years ago but i- i don't know i just havnt been able to bring myself to come here and face you out of guilt and fear as you can prob tell ive changed a lot got a few relativly new scars and peircings i dyed my hair a few times but heh my roots are growing out which is causing my natural roots to also peak out but hey ive been planning on dying them back to normal soon, i still wear the matching heart locket you gave me and it still even has the picture of you in it… i- i really miss you and- and cass oh wait you uh you don't know what happened um basically im in a really cool band with… really cool people with Cass and his little brother Trist you remember him right? Um but cass got really jealous of him because he’s good at practice and he’s more popular with our fans so he… he tried killing him, it it hasn't been easy but ive been trying to manage everything i- i cant help but to blame myself though i think its my fault but it’s cass’s so but instead of blaming myself or cass ive been blaming Trist which i know is s███y of me but ive blamed myself for so many things in the past and i cant handle another one… I really f███d up this time huh… sorry i should be dumping all this on to you, you dont deserve that *sigh* man if only i didnt do those drugs back then, maybe i wouldnt be like this and you’d still be here with me heh we’d prob be sleeping in bed by know and you’d have your warm arms me and making sure i feel safe while i fell asleep to the sound of your quiet snors and the warmness of your breath on my hair and ear… i miss that feeling and i miss you even more and i still think about you everyday and how badly i hurt you and how much i regret what i did then” Noah stood up from the moist ground and stretchd “I should be getting back by now, forgot my wallet at home so its not like i can get a hotel for the night and i absolutly refuse to sleep in my car… I love you Tomas, always have and always will and i know you may not love me the same way you did then but i can handle that” he walked back to the gate feeling better after being able to talk to his deceased lover when he got back to the gate
he climbed back up and after 5 minutes of double checking his footing finnally got down safely and walked back to his car. As he turned the engine of his car on he realised how tired he truely was but he still managed to stay awake to drive back home. When he opened the front door the only person he saw was calypso waiting for him on the couch “Hey kid...” noah said as he slipped his boots off and but his car keys on a hook “how long have you been awake” Noah asked out of genuine consern “... since you left i wanted to see if you were gonna come back or not” Calypso said rubbing some of the tiredness off of her eyes whild Noah plotted down right next to her on the couch “Are you ok…” “I’m… fine w- what about trist is he doing ok?” Noah responed scared if he had genueny hurt Tristan or not “he’s alright still righfully p███ed about what you said to him though… Noah, why are you blaming it on him? Its not his fault it’s Cass’s he was the one that took it to far-” “I know and its s███y of me to be doing that to him but the thing i feel that way about myself i blame myself for what happend but i hate that feelig of blaming myself so i chose the clostest person which at the time was Tristan and i hate forcing myself to feel that way because i dont really mean it and i miss cass and i know we all do but cass was my best fried i depended on him and trusted him more than anyone else in the world because he helped me out of a dark place and has been the closest person to me and now that he’s gone i dont know what to do with out him i feel stuck or like out of place because i’m Noah Cassius’s best friend and the bassist, nothing more nothing less…” “I may not fully understand how you but im still here for you we all miss him and your more then just cass’s best friend or just the bassist, your noah, your sarcastic but funny and very caring of the people around you, you like stuff like the rain and candy and you have your huge intrests in stuff like birds and the human body and even bugs hell you have a whole pet centipede fo you know how cool that is, your more then who you think you are but hey despite that your kinda an a████e sometimes but i cant blame you for that we all have our own trauma and things that are caused by it” Noah gave a slow but quick sigh before talking “Yeah i guess you got that right uh speaking of pet centipedes is Jimble doing ok has he been fed” “he’s alright i fed him before he went to bed, man when will you let me pick him up, I think he likes me” “Soon but know now, im going to be i suggest you do to” Noah said as he stood up and started walking to the basement stairs were his bedroom was located “Wait, Noah” Calypso said catching up to Noah “Promise me your gonna apologize to tristan okay?” “I promise with all my heart alright, now let me go to sleep its 3 in the morning “alright you gotta keep for me okay? now good night!” Noah smiled at Calypso before speaking up “alright, night little s█t oh, kid wait” Calypso stopped for a moment to see what noah wanted “I love you alright, i know i dont always show it but i mean it you guys mean a lot to me.” Calypso smiled this was the first time Noah had told any of them that he loves them and she was happy to be the first one “Love you too a███e” Calypso said as she continued to walk to her bedroom finally letting them both get some sleep AAAAAAAAA MY BABIES!!! I love these sillies sm I lowk got lost in the sause with this one lol xp uh nothing rlly note worthing for this one cuz im super tired and i still got one of these left to write and another one to finish so yayyyy im not gonna do it today tho cuz its 7:38 in the morning and I'm tired(explains the horrible grammar 4 this one)
