I need to vent.

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Before anyone asks, yes. I’m fine. I’m doing ok. ——————- (Btw, I typed all of this at like 12 am on Thursday, so uh, yeah-) -some things before we get into this whole thingy thing- 1. FFB is @funkyfreshbeat_. may he rest peacefully. 2. lowk, actually read the instructions before you comment smth. 3. I'm feeling way better than I was while making this project. this whole thing happened last week. so, I'm doing very good right now. ------------ … I hate this. I hate this week. I hate it so much. I hate it. Why did this week have to unfold like this. Just why. Why. WHY. TWO people that I know are no longer with us. I.. I don’t.. I can’t. (That other person being @_-MANGLE-. May she rest in peace..) I hate how oven is getting blamed for FFB’s death.. she didn’t cause funky to do this.. I’m not gonna call out names, but you know who you are. I.. I just hate this. I just feel like yelling. At the top of my lungs. Just screaming, yelling. SOMETHING. This whole situation has just been bothering me this whole week. I remember the other day in 7th period, I swear my hands were literally shaking.. they were cold too. The room was warm. No, room temperature. I have too much on my mind.. I wanted to say everything I had on my mind in here, but I honestly forgot. … I wish this whole week didn’t happen. I wish it didn’t. At all. I hate it. I freaking hate it. I just hate it.. so much. To FFB.. I’m sorry. This whole thing shouldn’t have happened in the first place. May you rest well. To FFB’s family.. I’m sorry for your loss. I’m sure FFB was an amazing brother, sibling, son, and friend to many. Gosh.. gosh.. oh gosh. Why did this week have to even happen.. After typing this.. I feel.. better..? I dunno. I feel the same as I did before typing this.. I just need to yell. … Sigh. I feel.. better. A little bit. I feel kinda calmer, that’s for sure. Gosh.. this week. It’s been too much.. I want a hug.. just.. something. The main thing that’s been messing with me this whole week has been oven and stafoon. Oven because she’s being blamed for this, and stafoon because some people think she caused FFB’s death.. she didn’t either. Yes, Stafoon’s words to FFB were much harsher than everyone else’s, she didn’t cause this. No one knew FFB was going to do this.. Man.. I just.. I dunno.. I don’t know, man. I’ve been taking deep breaths quite a lot during this week.. don’t know why I’m telling y’all this.. I need to talk to someone.. I’d talk to oven and stafoon, but I’m pretty sure they don’t want this situation to continue going on. I’d talk to some of my other friends.. but, I don’t.. I dunno. I want to talk to my parents about this, because they too have dealt with loss.. I feel like they wouldn’t take this seriously, though.. they think all i do on scratch is play games and just goof off, but no. That’s not the only thing I do on this platform. At least not currently. Back when I was first starting off? Hell yeah I was doing that. But not now. There may be some spelling and grammar errors in this whole thing.. i don’t really care, though. Uhhh.. why am I shaking while typing this whole thing? Am I going through grief rn? I.. I think so..? Maybe?? I think I’m going through grief too fast. I dunno. Everybody goes through grief differently. (Help tell me why my autocorrect tried putting “fried” instead of “grief” im crine <\3) .. I’m glad oven and stafoon are holding up well.. even if it’s not that tight or a grip. They have thick skin.. both of them. I probably would’ve broke if I were in their shoes, I dunno. Gosh, man. Even though im not venting to someone irl, this feels good to get out.. even though I don’t reallly feel any different than I did prior to typing this. Why are my eyes kinda watery? It’s probably unrelated to this. Uhm.. I don’t really know what else to say here. Uhh… production on projects will be either paused, or severally slowed down. I’m still trying to recollect myself. I’ve been questioning whether I’m bi or not.. I don’t think I am. I’m probably not. I’ve never been attracted to the same gender. Holy unrelated bro- Uhh.. yeah. Uh.. I feel sorta better now.. I'll see you guys in the next project.. whenever that comes out lol. .. I feel like this week should be remembered as FFB remembrance week. we could do something every year this week comes by. what do yall think? I want to leave this on a good and funny note, so uhhh… haha funny sonic meme haha so goofy ahahaha 67 skibidi toilet tung tung sahur or smth. Sigh.. I love you guys.. truly. Uh, yeah! Im out of things to say and talk about now. Cya guys in the next project! - editing this the next day - I'm feeling much better now.