Hi. Alot of these days I've been in a bad mood. Why? Because it's how stupid this job economy and life has been to me. 17, introverted, autistic and has ADHD, no car because I'm scared to get one. This basically limits me to be getting jobs that are across town. So when I go to places that are hiring and all they ask me is like "Your name and number. we'll call you the next day." I do that and like they never even call. Ok so might as well try and look for another one. "We're not hiring." "You calling makes me feel like you're not committed." or they make up some stupid excuse. This really starts to tick me off because like- I'm going to be 18 in a few months (September baby. yippee go me.). AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING people see me as smart. no the hell I'm not. I can't do math (geometry) unless I'm like told what the question is telling me to do or the fact I keep forgetting what was just told even with notes right there in front of me. I am soo sick of it all. Plus my parents think "Oh it's something he doesn't like so he doesn't do it" ohhh my god I just have a hard time understanding stuff. Plus there's nothing really a place for teens like me to go after school to do stuff. so I'm just at home, none of the kids in school want anything to do with me because i'm that one weird sped kid. I'm just so sick of it all. I'm tired. I'm done trying to be happy in my life but I keep at it so that my parents don't think that "OH IT'S THE PHONE" The phone is what keeps me from actually losing it. It's a thing I used to escape the life I have now. It's the thing that lets me keep in touch with y'all. I'm just so done with everything these days.
And it's not like I can get a car I'm just hella afraid I'm going to screw up with it plus I won't have the money to ever keep it on top even for gas.
