dude i cant stand him anymore. im usually always cold and dry to everyone but just this boy i can't hold my temper. He's gentle and kind to everyone he meets but for some reason hes different with me. With other people he doesnt sit close to them, but when hes with me he sits close enough to me that our arms and legs touch. I try to act like cold and like i dont like him but everytime we make eye contact i just get this weird feeling in my stomach. I get more calmer and this feeling where im in a safe place. I never felt that way with any other boy i liked. Usually i have a straight face but sometimes i crack a smile when he smiles at me. Maybe its because his name is Evan and he reminds me of heeseung but i dont think its that. We were hanging out on the rooftop but he looked at me and said something in chinese but i dont know the language. He said he'll tell me when we hang out again.