and so, you walked away; leaving back a simple dream. it hung on a puddle of moon's tears and swam away. just like the words i hurled, it's soggy and unsightly. though it's the worst, i wouldn't have it another way. your memory that is of a distant, shaky image turns into an amalgamation, into a mirage tonight i'm watching the raining stars with nobody but the wind by my side what is this feeling, is it a scar? or is there a gaping hole in my heart? such big worlds we were talking about with no future laying in front of them so my chest was chained up in a knot, and the key wasn't the love you brought! as if it had been scattered like the stars on the sky, i easily read through what was on your head that day. your thoughts and feelings were a loose thread i had untied. just like how your love was, they were cold and lacked a taste. to the summer sky you leave behind, i bid farewell behind your footsteps, the sorrowful dicentras linger because whenever i look ahead; i see you, who won't understand anything. i apologize for that i had led you into this night that has no end. because i cannot face my feelings, as they bloom into an ugly blossom. my stardust blood, my weakened body- i'm as hurt as you, can't you see? the sea echoes the purple night we had sat underneath the existence i had used to pity stands before me. i'm not your universe or savior, i don't seem to be what you want at all. doesn't matter what i was before, what's left of me's not human anymore! if you lift my skin that is a veil, will you finally see my beheaded soul? if you'll keep on smiling, i will be as lowly as you.
my lowly lover might be my favorite poem so far,, its very special to me, as it took me a long long time to write, and i wrote this about someone that had a great impact on my life. basically, they were someone that simply wasnt mature enough to understand my complex feelings towards them, but i do not blame them. because at that time, i didnt understand my own feelings either. however, things didnt end perfectly for us. thats why i blame them in the first place, because it couldve easily worked out if we were able to understand each other. we were never able to understand each other, thats right. we had certain images of each other in our minds, but never could see each other for our true identities. its truly pitiful. i couldnt get over it for a long while, for that i had felt as if i had been fooled. but at the end, we're all humans. we make mistakes. we come and go. thats why i choose to forgive them. its open to interpretation, though.
