IN A PARADISIAC CLIMATE EVERYTHING IS CLEAR AND SIMPLE WHEN YOU ARE PERFORMING BASIC ACTS NECESSARY FOR SURVIVAL ⵌ Systems associated with monoaminergic neurotransmitters have noticeable imbalances and in intracellular signaling systems that regulate mood. Subcortical volumes are smaller, altered white matter integrity, and lower cortical thickness. Changes in functional connectivity. Strong genetic component and epigenetic contribution. Decreased neuroplasticity. Reduced hippocampal, left amygdala, and anterior cingulate cortex volumes. ⵌ Subdued quiet grandiosity; stubborn, self-assertive; self-righteous; argumentative; peevish; unyielding; dyspeptic; legalistic. ⵌ Thomeas et al; F-MRI; left hippocampus and parahippocampal gyrus activation in preferential recall of traumatic words. During encoding of negative words, raised response in ventral and dorsal ACC. Bremmer et al; dysfunction in medial prefrontal cortex, hippocampus and cingulate in declarative traumatic memories. I do things more quickly and/or more easily I am more impatient and/or get irritable more easily I can be exhausting or irritating for others I get into more quarrels ⵌ Hallucinations; irritability; impulsivity; mood liability; dysregulation; anxiety; dysfunction. High NOVELTY SEEKING; impulsive and disorderly behavior. Thrill seeker that looks for adrenaline in conversation. Only avoids situations with traumatic associations. Often gets into debates and arguments; low HARM AVOIDANCE and high REWARD DEPENDENCE, desire to win social situations. Loyal to a fault. Moderate PERSISTENCE; chess player. ⵌ A tendency to seek adrenaline, whether through substances or internet debates or chan usage. When the adrenaline drops, its entire mood and stability drops. Depressive; intense irritable; agitation. Comparable to my own dependence on reward, a heavy dependence on adrenaline. ⵌ Notable paranoid traits with negativistic and narcissistic features, founded in traumatic and adverse childhood experiences. Obdurate and querulous (Theodore Millon, 2004), paranoid traits are notable in the way he speaks in his studio. Moves like a middle child. Should be evaluated for bipolar type two and early-onset paranoid personality, alongside complex post-traumatic stress. THE HOUSES WE HAUNT / WILL VAULT WITH OUR SICK-HEARTED LAUGHTER ⵌ Has a tendency to mimic those she admires or looks up to. Diction patterns, like most, tend to mimic whoever she is speaking to. Untameable and wild. Appreciates the truth and the realness, which I admire, not very many value realness. Has a tendency to project a more 'mature' and 'put-together' self image. Chan user. Very emotionally turbulent. ⵌ GLaDOS; Karkat Vantas; The Narcissist Cookbook; Self; Sea Power; RKS; Black Country New Road; Air Traffic Control; Jenny Holzer's bronze plaques. ⵌ Associated with paradoxes and absurdism to me. An animal, caged, biting scratching clawing. The world doesn't understand, will make the world understand. I’M AIMING THIS PLANE FOR THE SEA / I’M TAKING YOU ALL WITH ME
If this is incorrect on any point, you have the right to attack me. Wrote this in ninety minutes, inspiration struck me like a truck. Perpetually incomplete, your rant studio and the way you dictate your thoughts fascinates me (very positive). :~) Go listen to The Narcissist Cookbook, I think you would enjoy his music. I can't recommend a particular album, they're all fantastic. Moth, Eden Disorder, and Myth Side 1+2 are my favorites. Fantastic mix of politics, gender and identity, depression, narcissism, et cetera.
