Entry 3 - 5/25/26 (May 25th, 2026) "I'm ******* losing track of ****. I don't remember what I was writing. I meant to write more but got distracted. I'm about to lose my ****. She keeps telling me that I'm gonna fail at life. Yea ok. Keep ******* telling me that, maybe I'll fix everything wrong. Yes I miss little things, but guess what? Positive reinforcement helps more rather than saying "I can't wait to watch you fail. ******* hell. I feel like I'm drowning but let out for 1 breath then plunged under again. At this point, I'm alive for Caroline and my friends, no one else. Why do I still try anymore? **** isn't getting better. I don't know if I wanna be here anymore. I feel trapped in a rapidly shrinking box. No escape, no breathing, no hope. I can't enjoy the things I like anymore."
I'm only releasing some entries every so often. I'm not sure when the next one will be but you guys need to know what's going on and I'm not sure how to tell that except through these things.
