Wow. Three vents in a day. :)) To those of you who know me, I’m pretty sure you know that I hate myself. If you didn’t, well … Now you do lol And then you might ask me why and probably say “oh, but you’re this and that and ..” No. Just …. No Stop. No matter how hard you try, will I really believe it? No Why do I hate myself? Oh haha Good question. First of all, ew. I’m ugly in my opinion, and I just wonder how I get to be friends with people so amazing and better looking than me. Second of all, my personality. I’m too introverted. I’m a bother to people. I’m stubborn. I genuinely suck. Why am I like this? Third, what is my art? I have no talent. Sure, I might think some things look good, but not all the time. Fourth. Talent. Poof. Gone. Fifth I suck at math, i can’t finish a story, and I make stupid decisions. Sixth H o w d o i k n o w i f p e o p l e r e a l l y d o l i k e m e ? Seventh I C A N T P U L L A G U Y Eight I just hate myself. I really do. Ninth Im stupid hahahahaha Tenth I’m weird I don’t like myself Eleventh I DON’T LIKE MYSELF Twelfth What hope is there for me? Why am I still alive? What am I supposed to do? Thirteenth Where tf is my style Fourteenth People hate me too. I just know it. Fifteenth My stories? Oh hahah they suck. As my ex friend said, “info dumps and self-inserts” Sixteenth I hopelessly dream for things I know I won’t get. Ever. Seventeenth I’m insecure. Eighteenth Who truly loves me for who I am? When will I be able to stop being someone I am because of others? Nineteen My friends don’t talk to me. I don’t talk to myself Twenty Dark thoughts. I suck I’ll leave it at that but there’re a ton more reasons :)) The only reason why I’m alive today is because my family and the people i love. And idols Idols I really do hate myself a lot So much It kinda scares me a little :) But It’s ok Because I’m still here Right? Even if I feel dead inside All that matters Is that i’m breathing through the pain And I’m trying not to break into tears as I’m writing this And if C sees she’ll end me And if R sees he’ll scream But I posted this anyways So People will know That there’s no hope In trying To convince me To Love My stupid self :) Bye bye Don’t be angry Ily :)))
