hi hello hiya bonjour how are you this very fine day/evening so uh, Deepmaelstrom is very very likely going to be my last cat in generations. In fact, that honor was supposed to go to Orchidclemency, Deep would never have been mine had I not thought it fun to "window-shop" the litter hub. (it was not, in fact, just window shopping.) okay wait don't be sad or angry or mad (though I doubt most of you all know me well enough to feel all of this) because I have some reasons :) I'm currently having really bad knee issues, to the point where it's painful to walk about a quarter of the time. (my mother's genetics did not deal me a good hand) My brother got two knee surgeries before 16, so I can expect that in my near (or knee-er haha) future if everything keeps going the way it is. I really don't want to have to be worrying like "oh my gosh i'm missing grinding time!!" if I'm going to the doctor and stuff like that. coupled with that, I have two people very near and dear to me who are leaving soon, and I won't see them again in this world. I'm not like super sad, theoretically I'll be able to see them again in like Heaven but like that won't be for quite a while. like quite a while i have the full intention of staying here on this planet to annoy everyone. and to top it all off!! the grand finale!! what you've all been waiting for and expecting!! it just doesn't make me as happy as it used to. Deep is getting progressively harder to handle and his threads aren't as interesting as they used to be to respond to. This doesn't mean I'm dropping him. My motivation might spike again, but the chance of that happening is pretty low. I'll be keeping him for a while though, I want to do this goober justice. (he's already got two litters somewhat planned, watch out world!) now, i'm not leaving. I just won't have another cat. I'll be sure to do dreamvisits and other things of the sort with my ghosts, i still want to be somewhat here, but i just don't think i could deal with another cat. but however we are dealing with the mood swing queen right here and i may decide to have another living cat, on a poorly-planned whim. "but what about the literal two scraps of inspiration you had collected for your next cat??" well that'll be used for something (gasp a story) and she's gonna be the cutest little bean you've ever seen <3 all of this to say, marshy won't have another living cat. i will continue to dreamvisit, but i won't have one that's alive and plucked from a litter. woah okay i typed a lot. whoops. if you made it this far, congrats!! i'll be making a formal goodbye soon, with most likely some gifts if I get some time for the people who've been amazing. so this is what's next, huh? pleaseee no pity of any kind, please and thank you i just feel odd with it. like what am i supposed to do. i have no idea why you'd pity me anyways but please don't thanks!
