there's a possibility I may be off scratch soon. not by my own choice though. depending on how my next couple days go, I'll know. 1. MRT Mobile Resource Team. Its a program created by my county to help adults and youth with mental health problems. My counselor has told me that I need to see one. Bad news, I need parental consent. She's gonna talk to my mom and hopefully convince her to let me get this help. 2. What happens if she says no? I will probably lose everything. No tech. No friends. Not even public school. Again, I can't control this. I cannot deal with this. I WANT TO SCREAM AND RIP OUT MY HEART IF THIS HAPPENS. I AM NOT KIDDING. 3. If I can't get help because of this? I really hate saying it but I'll probably end up dead. I'm mentally unstable. I don't even feel safe talking to a counselor right now. I do not want to continue if I can't get the help I need. I feel it's a truth that people need to hear.
for any of you I have contact with outside of here please prepare for radio silence from me. I will try as hard as I can to return. if I don't? well...
