Red means I love you - part four

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Tw: shouting, fighting kinda In the end , what was this all for .. in the end , was this just a game .. It woke up once more , that little version of herself standing with a cruel smile .. Heartbreakkhaven sighed , she was tired... she was never going to get a good night's rest again .. "W-what... what do you want this time... " her voice was so so quiet that it sounded like a ghost..her paws trembling ... she was scared- scared of herself. This was stupid.. " hettie- ." Yet hettie just stood there , no words Just ... There , no movements ... Why why why , oh why ... Heartbreakhaven stood there , scared like a mouse waiting for the fox to pounce at it .. it's pink eyes weren't cold anymore.. they were filled to the top with fear .. while Hettie? Oh she held anger , flames of anger ... Anger that wren has seen in its own eyes many times .. it was weird to see its own emotions in someone else's.. " Tch- tch tch - heartbreak. You really have ruined many cats lives haven't you... And yet your still trying.. trying to fix it all .. " she snapped at them harshly .. " You - you are a menace.. aren't you? /Fox/ .. ren , dama , whatever anyone calls you .. you are one . " Hettie growled closer and closer to heartbreak .. Heartbreakhaven felt her heart break , she knew that .. hadn't they already said something very similar to this .. She clung to her own fur , it's paws on its chest .. trying to make itself not scared at this small version of herself.. " .....i- I've already said I'm sorry. " It grumbled, it's eyes still scared but that tone ... That tone was pure hatred.. " but you know what?- I'm sorry to those cats , but you ? I'm not saying it to you .. /we/ have turned into this by both of our faults.. you can blame me , but oh- I won't listen to your poem." It said with it's nose stuck high in the sky , as if trying to ignore Hettie Hettie just coughed.. , Hettie didn't have any feelings, she was a dream , something fake .. and yet so realistic to heartbreak .. " You ain't ` brave enough to take the blame for this ..." She hissed at heartbreakhaven with claws digging into it's tail , " you will / never / change , you hear me ? NEVER . " She started to shout .. " YOU CAN NEVER CHANGE , NO MATTER .. YOU WONT BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO CHANGE NOR TO TAKE THE BLAME.. " she scoffed , these words were just her thoughts.. Heartbreakhaven sat , her eyes looking deeply into Hetties eyes .. Hettie? No.. this cat doesn't need a name what's special.. " You will - you will never be called Hettie .. no . You are from now on Odium , suits you I think ... With all that hatred you have for -.. .. for /yourself/ " this was her , she knew that but she knew this was a dream..- no nightmare... "YOU'LL NEVER BE LIKE HIM - NEVER BE LIKE SLIVERSTAR. YOU'LL NEVER CHANG- what." It seems like Odium was so focused on hate she didn't even realise she had been renamed .. Out of nowhere wren clawed at this smaller cat , chucking her to the side .. yet she didn't feel anything, and she knew this wasn't exactly hurting anyone.. Odium looked at heartbreakhaven while being tossed to the side .. she was breaking.. she , she the thought bubble of heartbreak.. " You - YOU THINK YOU CAN CONTROL ME ? YOU THINK ? - your a thought of mine... I know this ain't real.. even if your words may be .. - I know I can't change... I know that but starclan above .. I take the blame for it all - and mabey slowly I can change... Slightly.. I can promise I won't be be same sometimes but I know , I /know/ I can *try* and be better to certain cats .. just not all of them .. I will stay the same .. just with small changes .. and who knows .. mabey I will change into a better cat " that last part .. that was a lie , it knew , everyone knew it wouldn't change but , she knew it was stuck as this beast , an cold hearted, cruel , harsh cat but .. - in the end - Heartbreakhaven woke up once more , still tired but small pride filled her chest .. one step at a time ... , she may always be this type of cat , but it can fix things .. just not itself.