okay, so my friend just had this little "birthday party" at school. it was fun, buttt... i felt so out of place. for some context, i have like, one close friend. we hang out everyday. were both friends with this group (one of which had her birthday today).my friend is closer with them then i am. anyways... i just felt so weird and out of place. ive always been nice to them and tried to talk to them, (in fact, ive been friends with them for a REALLY long time). but i still felt likeee... really weird and overwhelmed being around them. also, they were eating brownies and stuff, which REALLY looked good. but for some reason, i felt super weird and i got all like... not allowed to eat-ish (iykyk). so, i didnt eat anything, and i moved to the back of the classroom to go on my phone. being around them just feels so weird. plus, they clearly like her more, so... i just fell lonely and weird around them. i always go silent when im in a group with them. idk if this made any sense, but eh. whatever.
i really want some snacks rn
