I feel pretty weird returning here. I lie to myself all the time. I tell myself things like "You can't do this", "You won't do it, it's not worth it", but sometime later, I do it anyways. That's the case with this. I have changed a lot since the last time I have left a comment on this dead website . The things I'm into are pretty wild, things that will probably get me banned again if I suddenly decide to post a sample. This made me tell myself that nobody will accept you, they're gonna think your weird, they're not gonna wanna talk to you for who the person you've become now. And after that I became paranoid for a bit and then forgot about everything. Idk, this is just so different from what I'm used to now. I forgot how to be a scratcher entirely, because I moved on, or is what I wanted to do but the urge was just too strong. I decided to take advantage of the network at an apartment (cuz they banned my network), and here I am now. So uhh, yeah. I might not return back here in 31st of May, cuz I'm gonna have to go back. But I might return somewhere in august.
