idk what to do anymore. i feel like im doomed to fail. im horrible at everything i do. i can tell i make people uncomfortable. i doubt anyone really likes being around me. everyday i have an existential crisis, its honestly sad and pathetic. im scared. i dont want to fail him. i dont want him to leave me. but i know its inevitable. all ive ever done is hurt other people. i can never do anything right and end up making things worse for others 99% of the time. idrc if anyone sees this. i doubt they will. and if they do i doubt theyll care. bc who cares for someone as useless, pathetic, and lazy as me?
