i hat3 how my mother can talk about some of the stuff i love and need with no respect. sometimes it's stuff i need/love so much that hearing her talk that way about it is like hearing her talk badly about me. i feel like sometimes she only loves the version of me she wants to be. i dont feel happy anymore when she tells me she loves me, because she barely even knows who i am, because it's like she kind of tries to carve who i am to her liking. it's gotten bad enough that i barely even know i am anymore. i stay away from some stuff to feel less anx1ous, so now even some colors i once loved that she says are 'too tough for girls' i find hard to bring myself to love again i guess that's why i crave friendship and romance - i want connections with people that make me feel seen and loved and cared for as myself
the banner I made for this proj LEGITILOWKIRKENGENUINELY might be the best one I made + my fave one (sadly I couldn't fit the whole image) crazy cuz at first I was so lost when making it, and it wasn't going well lolz
