yo can either read my rant below or jam with mario it's your decision (foreshadowing) i worry that my harsh language was too harsh but at the same time i wasnt targeting anyone just complaining about stuff so idkdkkk MAYBE btw dont think that just because i replaced some words with "life" that meant the original had me literally cursing i dont do that and i... i-i honestly feel kind of betrayed you'd eevn think i would... *deads* Christianity? COOL! *flips coin and grabs it* that was a pacman ghostly adventures reference that game is nostalgic i like it despite some people hating that pacman i really think the voice fit him and idk i just liked the game a lot thank s
you want to know why having a vessel sucks? i'll tell yo exactly why NOW I COULD just type out a very long, 5 paragraph rant about whatever... but, i find it more interesting and less time consuming for you and for me if i just told you my points instantaneously... from there, you can decide whether you want to hear my summarizations or explanations, eah.. here they are: 1. your brain overrides your rational thought always 2. you never stop thinking 3. you barely have any control over your emotions 4. you'll always be dependent on forces you have no idea of 5. the theory of whether your soul is influenced by your flesh or not FIRST OFF, i feel like this is obvious and i may have reiterated a similar point, but seriously, i dont get why people find having a vessel amusing or fun. if you constantly get pushed around regarding how you feel, this can really suck (obviously). we're not talking about emotions here (yet) by the way, we're talking about how just having a body is enough to have to take care of constant needs that never stop. you want to breathe? air and lungs. you want to feel okay? water and food. you want to straight up live? all of them. do you see what i mean yet? i mean, eah, you may be saying like, "but those are basic and simple things" YEAH, NO JOKE, SHERLOCK. i dont think you realize running out of anything could practically destroy you. one deficiency of any single function, requirement, or limb could be the difference between you in a nursing home and mostly still working fine. this is frustrating. i'll tell you the next thing though which is... you're always thinking. might not sound like a big deal but DO I HAVE TO?! (yes) i know this isn't a rant about practicality or logic, im just straight up complaining about stuff that can't be changed but maybe think about that for a second? your brain never stops working, you never stop living, so you have to. you even realize that your brain is actually a lot more active when you're asleep? i will repeat this and i will still look at it in disbelief. excuse me, sleep? YOU CAN HANDLE THE NFORMATION LATER, YOU ABSOLUTE life< YOU LITERAL life "i play fortnite to wind down what the freak do i need my brain for?" "TO WIN, TO WIIIIII" Okay, yeah, now we're talking about emtoions for once. i've tried to cope with this one MANY a time, but i still struggle with just straight up accepting it. now, we're not talking about needs like requirements... your brain tells you automatically how to feel, when to feel, and how much you should feel it. grrrrrrrrrrrr WHAT, WHY?! now i will say that what im about to say is obvious: many a people have more control over their emotions than i. BUT, that still doesn't change anything, at all. the very fact that no matter how good you are at controlling yourself, manipulating yourself, making yourself do good... it ALL means that you'll inevitably mess up at some point, your body will get the best of you, and you'll have to keep on repeating this process YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. GHHGHGRHGRHGHBRFVNXJVUHNRSBGIHUYVYHF' YOU COULD SAY "gah i'll just supres them" NNNNNO THAT WONT WORK, THAT JUST MAKES THEM STRONGER. YOU COULD SAY, "gah i'll just forget about them" YOU CAN'T, YOU Can't. YOU LITERALLY CANT. YOU COULD SAY, "gah i'll just ignore them" ...but can you do that for anything regarding your feelings? no. "follow your heart!" "do what you want to!" SHOOT YOUR QUOTES< SHOOT YOUR "MOTIVATION" MY HEART IS FREAKING FULL O BLOOD WHAT DO I NEED TO LISTEN TO IT FOR I'D RIP IT OUT IF I COULDJGEJNADJVNIXNJCNIJNV AND YOU KNOW THE WORST PART??!?!?!!?!?! IT DOESNT MATTER ANYWAYS. THE SECOND I CONQUER MYSELF, THE SECOND I GAIN CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS, THE SECOND I ACTUALLY GET BACK TO 0... I"LL INSTANTLY GO BACK TO 1 BECAUSE I FREAKING FEEL SOME TYPE OF VICTORY THEN (real) even right now it's at a 1 because i feel anger towards it. the very reason i feel anger right now is because it's making me feel it man i hate it TYING IN with my fourth point this one will definitely be shorter because it's just an addition... but you realize not even the way you FEEL is stable? I'd honestly get it, I'd really get it if it was consistent. I mean, hey, if I was dictated by something beyond my will, I'd at least be able to predict it, right? WRONG , DEAD WRONG, YOUR AN CHEMICALS< HORMONES<NOT GETTING ENOUGH OF THIS< THAT<WHATEVER YOU THINK I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE THIS? you dont get enough of this, you dont got enough of that, you're off balance Hoow the freak was i supposed to know this? huh? a doctor visit daily? what're they going to do anyways? put sterile wrap around my hormonal imbalance? BRAINS ARE LIKE LITERAL TODDLERS YOU MAKE A MESS YOURSELF AND EXPECT ME TO CLEAN IT UP, NOT EVEN MNETIONGIN YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW HOW TO CLEAN IT UP YOU DO IT YOURSELF YOU PINKI DONT KNOW YOU I DONT ENJOY YOU JST SJDISA character limit LOL (final thoughts):
