so uh. wut I don't have good mental health. me too lol and that's problem. why? cuz its hurting the content I make for yall. NO ITS NOTTT yes I have to focus on myself. fair.... but my dad said those emotions can't control me. well you're dad's stooopud so I'm trying to not let that take all my thoughts up. no stppppp im not going on hiatus or leaving. YAYQ but I do want to share some of the things cuz I will feel better sharing it with my small fan base (I luv y'all) thx :3 so basically I have a lot of friend drama going on. sameeee mostly me and one person and its getting draining. and I cant keep up with my yolo persona. ya and u shoudlnt!! its like I'm lying to you guys cuz. ... I'm not like that. irl or just right now? also I'm struggling finding my gender identy. samemeeeee and its easier with unrestricted internet access. uh- except. what?! everything is check so not so unrestricted even my roblox was put at age 21+ but my parents check my roblox. u dont even have roblox UR LUCKY!! and personal journals. oh no thats messed up god that was brutal. IT IS!! but anyways ive changed a lot just from the end of the year. samee lloollll again my friend drama is kinda complicated. same I'm getting left on read and ignored for things that arent my falut. ..same...? my parents are acting too nice I'm kinda scared. or maybe I'm not used to it. WHAT!!!??!?!?! idk :p but my mom suggested therapy but then told me I don't need it. well fak her >:( I try to vent to my dad more cuz my mom yells alot. and her words hurt more. noooooo and she compares me to others. same i lowkey- like I get overwhelmed and she sees me crying over "nothing" and she says "your friends wouldnt act like that, grow up" but somehow shes nicer anyways I have another problem I need help on.... so I have a friend-rival person (yk wut I mean) lets call her Mo-mo. so I started texting mo-mo even tho I hate her guts cuz my friend named uh Em-em acts like shes the best in the world and mo-mo has made me feel depressed as frick but em-em is my bestie..I think.. so I felt like IM the problem and at school we got a friendship award (me and em-em) but I don't know if that's true anymore I would prob get it with my other friends atp and on last day of school she just left and I cried and it felt werid cuz I thought em-em, me, and cc would all be together but ty for the hug that helped a lot I was mentally dying cuz I miss school but also eveything was just gonna get even harder and my friends are drifting I don't have anymore things to vent abt well I do but I feel kinda tired rn (I'm never tried even tho I cant sleep) bye advice welcome or your own vent in comments are very welcome, dump your crap here my little baitches luv y'all stay safe ( ◜‿◝ )♡
