This project isn’t for the #aesthetics (not really) June 1st 2026 officially marks 1 year that I found out Xure was gone. Xure was a close friend of mine and many others. She was a friend, a best friend, an “idol”, but she was also a person who brightened everybody’s day without even knowing it. I think that it’s quite surreal that it’s been 1 entire year without her. I would like to share my fondest memory I have with her. It was one day where I decided to go on a break for a singular day. When I came back, Xure immediately greeted me with “HIII!! OMG I MISSED YOU SM STAR!!” That really warmed my heart because I was only gone for a day and at the time I thought it was quite silly. Now we’ve been separated for 1 year, I miss her a lot. Words, numbers, symbols, not even ancient Egyptian hieroglyphs can explain how much I miss her. I would also like to share my saddest memory with her, well it wasn’t really with her, more like without her. I have many sad ones like when I first found out but I think the most tragic one was in the middle of gym. It was the end of the period, it only was 1 week after she passed, I started sobbing. People were worried, I just said that I got hit in the head with a volleyball that wasn’t the case though. Unfortunately, I do often cry because I miss her that much. I try to stay strong and not be sad because that’s what she definitely would’ve wanted. But sometimes, late in the night, I just started crying. Anytime that happened, I dm’ed her how I’m feeling and how the group is holding up without her. I’ve left maybe over 1,000 messages that were left unread by her. I would also like to share a fact, a sad one, but it’s still true. About 2 days before her death, she was listening to “No One Noticed” by The Marias. I hold that song very close to my heart, closer than ever before. I never noticed the struggles she was going through and even if I did I automatically assumed she was strong enough to overcome it but no one can stay strong for long. I regret not checking up on her when I knew she was tired. We all have regrets that we couldn’t save her but it’s not our fault and I’m reminding myself and you of that. And guess what? I wanna share another thing. I don’t know why but sometimes I feel like feathers are messages sent down by her. Maybe I’m crazy. I think this way because of something that happened to me. It was an average day, I was out and about, then it started raining. A feather fell onto my shoulder. I picked it up and looked up at the beautiful clouds. I said something to the feather (kind of) hoping that the message would make it up to Xure. I don’t remember exactly what I said I just know that I said that I loved her. Before I blew the feather away, I said for it to make it up to Xure somehow. I released the feather and it didn’t go down, it went straight up. It kept going up until it left my line of vision. It started raining harder after that. Thank you, Sophia, for everything. For a beautiful friendship, for being a lovely person that I was honored to be friends with, for being there for the entire group even when no one was there for you. I promise, I’ll be there for everybody else so that this won’t repeat.
The image I put is of a cake that I ate in honor of Xure’s passing. Me and my 2 real life friends downed it while singing “happy 1 year to Xure” privately. My 2 real life friends that I shared it with were there for me when she passed. They listened to everything I had to say about her and every single time I said that I missed her. Happy 1 year, Sophia. The group misses you greatly, so do I. I hope you’re safe wherever you are. I love you so much. If any of Xure’s close friends’ find anything I said offensive, this project will be either modified or taken down entirely. If you read all of this, you’re genuinely such a lovely person and if you didn’t? You’re still a lovely person. Thank you all.
