❝ But you know that sadness, it’s kinda a lovely thing to feel, because it means you really loved someone when you miss them. When I miss my mom, I remember all the cuddles I used to get from her. It makes me feel close to her when I miss her in a strange way. I remember it’s because she made me so happy. I’m happy to have all the memories so I can celebrate her and I can miss her at the same time. ❞ - andrew garfield - - - maybe in another universe we’re still sitting around the camp together giggling at the most random and dumb stuff but we’re not nothing can change what’s happened see I wanted to be a mother but. either you’ve all grown up or I’ve grown too old I just only hope that one day you can forgive me for I know I made mistakes terrible ones too but can’t you see they were done in love? that’s all I ever wanted to do I learned from someone special who taught me to be everything I am today if our kits don’t grow up knowing acts of love they won’t understand it and if they don’t understand it they won’t cherish it when I am gone one day, and I know this day will come I dream my descendants will look back at me and remember a mother who tucked those in need under her wing and cared for those who couldn’t for themselves not somebody selfish or dismissive because I never meant to be that I worked so hard to have cats see that and if they can’t see that now it’s okay maybe someday they will and I’ll be remembered as the sun bright and full of life helping all those around flourish for now, I’m okay taking care of the young ones teaching them what I failed to learn I’m sorry to those I couldn’t save if you have anger towards me I understand it just know I still will love you even when it’s hard even when we disagree if you shut down, I’ll wait outside the door even if you can’t explain I’ll understand even if you don’t like yourself I still will hold you if you change, I’ll cherish who you become always. I’ve heard people say there’s more to life more to life than just getting by more to life than working hard for the longest time though I wasn’t sure what that ‘more’ was but then I met all of you and realized its you all of the cats in my life you’re the reason everything feels richer more alive and meaningful you all are my ‘more’ I’m sorry if I never got to tell all of you that to the kits now in different clans I hope you do not grow up in hate and spite I can still love you without having to see you for love is in the heart and soul not in front of the eyes my children, you calmed my storms not created them you made me believe in love without conditions one day I hope to remind you of that if you should have me for now I’ll wait because you are worth it no matter what you or I have been through always.
