[rant/vent] IF YOU KNOW ME IRL LEAVE THE PROJECT RIGHT NOW. Genuinely what is going on with my life rn. I'm literally serious. Let's name one of my friends C and the other B. (look i don't wanna share irl names without their permission) A rumor's been going around that me and B are dating and someone in my class spread it, and I don't know who. It pmo because the only reason they spread the rumor is because B is openly lgbtq+ and they think that just because they're not straight we're dating or something. We act exactly the same as everyone else in the class, we talk about similar stuff, we're interested in similar shows, and we're just as normal and equal as they are. But JUST because they're openly lgbtq+ everyone suddenly thinks we're dating. And no-one even asked us about it, they just whisper behind our backs and treat us like we're some sort of disease. We aren't, we're literally just humans trying to survive school like everyone else. And what's even worse is that B likes C. That in itself is completely fine, because they're completely welcome to each other, but a bunch of people keep saying now that they think C likes me and we're also dating, or even that I'm cheating or something. NO! I'M NOT! WHY? Because i was never TOGETHER with either of them in the FIRST PLACE! Just because we aren't straight, that doesn't mean we're dating by definition! We're just like the other people in the class, and we're totally normal! I don't like either of them as anything more than a friend, so why does everyone act like it?! Every time C interacts with me physically (like a hug or smth) I feel really bad, because I don't mind hugs too much now, and I'm totally fine with it, but B likes C and I don't want to upset them! Either of them! I feel like a bad friend sometimes. Also, I keep feeling randomly lonely or ignored or something stupid like that. Like, a lot of people are in on that rumor, and any time I try to say something to approximately nearly half of my class, they ignore me or keep talking to someone else, or just look at me awkwardly. Just treat me like a NORMAL HUMAN, so what if me and my friends aren't all completely straight and neurotypical?! We're still PEOPLE! It makes me feel so alone, like I can't talk to anyone, and I'm doing something wrong. Maybe I am, I don't know. Sometimes it feels like I can't, because even talking like this online feels like I'm being the main character or something. I hate it. Well, that's it, thanks for actually reading that incredibly long paragraph if you got to the end <3
