I feel like nobody really likes me. No matter how hard I try to fit in, I always end up feeling different, left out, or unwanted. Sometimes I watch other people laughing with their friends and wonder what's wrong with me. It feels like everyone has someone, and I'm just there. I've been struggling a lot with how I look too. Every time I see myself, all I can focus on are the things I wish were different. I compare myself to other people constantly, and it makes me feel worse every time. Sometimes I get so caught up in wanting to change myself that I start starving myself. I know those thoughts aren't helping me, but they're hard to ignore when I'm already feeling so low. The worst part is that I don't really know how to explain any of this to people other than my freinds. On the outside I try to act normal, but inside I'm tired. I'm tired of overthinking everything I say. I'm tired of feeling like I'm not enough. I'm tired of looking at myself and only seeing flaws. Sometimes my emotions get so overwhelming that I don't know what to do with them. I end up feeling stuck with all this sadness, frustration, and self-hatred, and it feels impossible to make it stop. There are moments when I've struggled with hurting myself. Not because it would fix anything, but because I didn't know how else to cope with everything I was feeling. I wish people understood how much energy it takes to get through some days. I wish I could stop comparing myself to everyone else. I wish I could look in the mirror and not immediately find something to hate. More than anything, I wish I could believe that I'm enough as I am. Right now that's really hard for me. Right now I just feel lost, lonely, and exhausted from fighting my own thoughts every day.
