Lyrics: So it goes It’s summer already And I Still feel responsible For every issue there is Especially when it has to do with you You can say it’s okay That it’s not my fault I was put in a tough position And only acted how I know to But I Still feel I could have prevented it If anyone’s rude They’re just shy But if I’m rude you can say goodbye Cause it’s always My fault My fault My fault Yeah-ah-ah My fault My fault My fault Hm hm hm hm I thought the self blame would stop When you said it’s okay But I still need to Explain everything away And if you are ever sad because of me I’d cry and say It’s my fault my fault my fault All my fault My fault yes there it is An unavoidable consequence Cause I did a crime by existing And the solution is nonexistent And it makes me want to cry Cause I’ll care for you no matter why And I still think It’s my fault My fault My fault Yeah-ah-ah My fault My fault My fault No visible solution Iridescent tears Cascade off my lashes And I smile at the sky and say “Look, another mess caused by me” Cause it’s my fault my fault my fault Yeah insecurities, don’t know how to say My fault my fault my fault A never ending void I will never break free Trapped in the prison of everyone’s issues And still I can’t see A light in sight My fault my fault my fault I walk like I’m blind A silk tying my eyes Making me cry Endlessly I feel threatened And your struggles Make it worsen Yeah please save me From my misery So hold my hand It’ll be alright I will never, ever let you cry I swear That things will get better Even if you can’t see anything changing in the near future So it’s my fault My responsibility Take care of you Like a best friend should And I Feel horrible That I let anything bad happen In the first place Cause I’m just helpless Crying my eyes out What if you think I hate you now And I wish You could know How I care More than you see On the outside Please don’t go Cause I promise I’ll love you through it all But it’s still My fault my fault my fault Worthless apologies mean nothing My fault my fault my fault Makes me want to cry Love you more than I could ever love myself And it makes me surprised When you don’t blame me So please Just tell me It’s all my fault
Meaning and inspiration: I honestly wrote this song when I was going through a hard time and I even cried writing it because it resonated with me so much. My way of care is acts of service and helping those I love so when I am unable to, I feel like I have made a mistake and it’s all my fault even if it’s not. I am doing better now and things are easier but I still feel that desire to be able to help everyone, even though I know it isn’t possible.
