Yeah, so, I might be overreacting a bit, mostly because EVERY FREAKING TIME I HAVE A GOOD DAY EVERYTHING GOES WRONG. But, it's also because, honestly, gender dysphoria and just general grief is catching up to me a lot more than usual. Trigger warning for the rest of it (in the notes and credits section), mentions of death, grief, and just a lot in general.
This isn't a roleplay. I need to get some things off my chest, because I really just can't keep acting like every little thing ISN'T making me feel more and more close to death. ... I didn't tell anyone online, but when me and Mia started the first minecraft roleplay, my uncle died from a heartattack. I was kind of using the rp to distract myself through it all, and the grief has finally caught up with me. I also lost my cat, JJ, just a few days before me and Mia ever even met. This might be oversharing, but, I have genuinely stopped caring. I might as well explain it all before I have to explain it to a therapist or mental hospital (and/or medical hospital) staff. I tend to go over the edge so-to-say very easily. I always have. I always will, most likely. And right now I've been dealing with extreme paranoia when it comes to meeting new people (old trauma and whatnot getting to me), trying not to have a breakdown in front of people who don't react to that well, and also trying to avoid another medical emergency before the end of the month.
