ok so. kinda thought this would be a good time to post this but uhh hEres the deal so i think i might be bigender or genderfluid or sumtang im still kinda thinkin and experimenting and exploring snd researching and stuff so i really dont know but uhh basikly im just like SO scared,,, of like everything i just dont want my "normal" friends to leave me like if they found out just cause im different or dont fit their standards or whatever but i feel bad keeping things from them cause i'm usually pretty open to my close friends and my parents would actually slime me out cause they are like super. yknow so im just really terrified pf what might happen if someone were to figure me out and i would like to express myself more but i feel like even if i just asked for a shorter haircut suspicion might arise and i just. still want to be the daughter that my parents raised and that they love but that's just not how i feel anymore,, idk man and liek ive just always been so scared of being ostracized and like rejected by everyone so i've been trying sososososo hard to fit the societal norm and i have these old old friends and i know they would never see me the same if they knew and i just dont want to be treated like an animal because pf the way i express myself and the labels i choose for myself and i get that its probably super selfish of me cause i know that so many people go through that type of thing all the time and i feel so bad but i just have this super deep fear of seeming weird or unapproachable by people who are higher up than me (even just in terms of something as stupid as popularity at school),, i know its selfish to ask for reassurance affirmation and/or advice but i was hoping to maybe just get somthing idk sorry for th lore drop and intense yapping guys buh bye
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