"I have often dreamed Of a far off place Where a great warm welcome Will be waiting for me Where the crowds will cheer When they see my face And a voice keeps saying This is where I'm meant to be" I just finished listening to Odeki- /Fable/kit talking about fae's transition. It... was inspiring, honestly. Yeah, I was too embarrassed to talk myself, but hearing Fable speak with such joy... It made me wonder if /I/ was right. Fablepaw changed fae name because fae didn't think 'Ode' matched faeself... Did 'Oath' truly match a soul as troubled as I? An oath was a promise. One you promised to keep. A serious one. Would /I/ keep a promise as serious as that? "I will find my way I can go the distance I'll be there someday If I can be strong I know every mile Will be worth my while I would go most anywhere To feel like I belong" Maybe I would. Maybe I wouldn't. I wish I could change; be myself as a whole. The opposite of a promise was a lie, right? I've heard of some cats being named 'Deceit'. I know that means a lie. Untruthful. Dishonest. How often have /I/ lied? Once? Twice? More? I wonder how Fablepaw did it. The confidence. I, admittedly, have /never/ felt confident. Perhaps if I was named something with less purpose. If Stratusghost was more loving. If Elegykit and Epickit hadn't passed... Maybe I'd be confident like I pretend to be. I want to cry, but that would make me weak. I'm being stupid. My name has a purpose. I'm strong. I'm brave. I'm loyal. But... Why does Deceitpaw feel better. I'm scared. Change is scary. I can't change. I can't do this. No one can know about this. No one. Not even Willowpaw. "I am on my way I can go the distance! I don't care how far Somehow I'll be strong I know every mile Will be worth my while I would go most anywhere To find where I belong"
