I've always hated my body. I never liked the way I looked, and my hate for my body deepened ever since I realized I'm trans. I hate the fact I look masculine. I hate the way some people look at me after even taking a glance at me. Yet people always say "you look fine the way you are" or "but you look nice like this! Why change it?". They may have their opinions, but it's my body, and how I want to change it is up to me. I hate being born a guy, I despise it. And it's hard to even come out because I'm scared my friends will leave me because of the fact I'm trans. Heck, I'm even scared to do normal things because I'm scared of what people would think of me. I'm scared they might think I look dumb, or stupid, or make fun of me. I feel awkward around most people I meet, and I just feel like such an annoying burden to them. I'm scared to lose my friends because of how I am, and it's hard for me to change. I just feel terrible about myself 24/7. I'm scared to be in relationships because of how I look and act (especially recently). I tried getting help but no matter what I feel like nobody can really understand how I feel. I hate the way my mind thinks. And I just hate myself in general. I've always wanted to look a certain way just so I can fit in, and not look like a weird, ugly outsider. Thank you for listening <3 Sincerely, Xee
