I'm so tired I wish she'd just disown me. I deserve it. She doesn't deserve to have me around dragging her back like a rock. I've never actually ment something to her, I'm just the disgrace of a pig she had instead of the beautiful perfect daughter that she could call her own. I got all of my privileges taken away, even going outside or being with my friends is a no now. All because I couldn't do something like she asked. I feel so pitiful and weak, I disappointed her, and now she sees me as a ducking piece of paper, crumpled up and unusable. I'm sacred, she might Say something harmful again or maybe (h1t me) with her hand or a hanger. I fear her. I fear disappointing her. I fear everything about her. So I hide in my room for hours on end, the only thing comforting me is a tablet with people from thousands of miles a way on. All I wish for is for her to call me her son. Just her son. Her kid Someone she loves freely And doesn't yell at when he was caught doing $h That's all I want It'll never be true And I can never grasp on how it wont.
All I want is a hug rn.
