Click the backdrop to learn some info. Chapter 1 - Thursday: My name is Marilyn, and for most of my life, I thought I could just be crazy. Crazy as in, not acting like too much of an idiot; Staying up late at parties, fawning over celebrities and all the other dumb things teens do. Of course I was wrong, always have to be, but maybe mistakes are just part of life saying, 'you can always learn'. It was a normal morning for a distance education student like me, get up in the morning, half asleep, and go to the roll call meeting where all the students have to show their faces on camera and say they'll do their school work. So, what went wrong? Ethan. I had never been into talking to boys, especially going into teenhood, that part of life always brought worries of being judged or mocked. A girl talking to a boy? They must like each other. Ethan had always been my exception, I would say hi, wave, small things. I thought he was cool and I didn't really mind too much if other people saw. We almost never talked though. Today, it was different. I sat there with my camera off, waiting for the teacher to ask us to turn on our cameras. Ethan turned on his and seemed to be looking at or for someone. It might have just been a friend or something, but my neck and arms tingled and It felt as if he was looking straight at me and me alone. My thoughts went to how he looked, kinda handsome, his curly hair, the small smile. I felt the beginning of a nervous smile, the one I always got when something made me feel out of my comfort zone. My arms felt like wrapping around me and I wanted to curl into a ball. I quickly looked at the teacher instead, phew, that was close, I might have looked really weird just then. Though the meeting finished, I still couldn't get the memory of his face out of the front of my mind. This felt so weird, why was I acting like this? I did like to ball up and hug myself, but why now? When I looked at Ethan? And no one else. Chapter 2 - Friday: Eugh, Friday. The worst day of the week. School assignments due, the excitement of it almost being the weekend. And for me, fish day. I don't eat meat on Friday, but at least I like some fish, otherwise I definitely wouldn't be able to do anything other than having an empty stomach. That's not what I was worrying about today though. I was contemplating the new discovery I made yesterday. I still felt confused, why did I suddenly feel like this? Life was fine, I was fine, just stressing about schoolwork, but I didn't have these weird jumbled up emotions before, to top it all off. Once I finally zone back in, I realise that I have been sitting there, staring into space, for five minutes. I look back at my maths, 'What the heck is that?' I whisper to myself. Algebra, quadratic equations, eugh. I go to check if my friends have contacted me, yes! Three messages. Oh, Kelly was just replying to me squealing. Mellie! Sent a dumb meme. Can I have an actually interesting message? 'No, I was just joking!', thank you for letting me know Rose. I give up and write down in the group chat, 'Hey, anyone on?' I wait a couple seconds and, 'YUP! Hru?' Mellie says. 'I'm.... fine.' I replied slowly. 'R U tho?' She presses. 'No, I'm stressed about so many things!' 'I'm sorry' I wait, knowing she'll add something. 'Wanna hug? (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ' 'Yes pls ⊂(・﹏・⊂)' 'It'll be okay.' She says kindly. I didn't want to admit it, but I was starting to think I had a crush. I tried to write and draw, but I couldn't think of anything to write and I kept erasing my drawing. (Ch 3 & 4 :
