I knew this would happen... Yet I wasn't ready for it... My past fear came true..... I've been worried about what I'm going to do when I grow up... I'm not.... Sure.. But deep down, I know what I want.. I wanna be an animator... But, the thing is... I want to be a full time animator... And the youtube kind, like someonefishy! But... The thing is...The chances of earning money is less there.... And I've been dreading the time I have to decide what I'm going to do as a grown up... The time has come... My dad wants me to decide what I'm going to be RIGHT NOW.. I'm only 12! Not even a teen yet.... But he wants me to pick... He says I pay no attention to the stuff he attempts to teach me, and he says I have no interest in ANYTHING!... That's NOT true!............... It's SO unfair... Everyone wants me to be better than others, the BEST! But I just want to be normal.... I wanna follow my heart, but I'm afraid... I'm afraiid my parents wont accept the choice I've made for my future...... Everyone wants me to focus on studies.... I'm starting to feel like scratch is a distraction... My sister keeps tattling on me, and I'm worried my mom will take away my screen rights..... It's so hard... Especially when I don't trust anyone enough to vent on them... Along with that, I've had weeks of bad days.... Starr is missing, and has been for 2 months, and oh... I miss her... And I'm missing old friends.... It's so difficult... ..I'm sorry, I don't mean to vent and ruin your day... ....
(I reshared this a day after it was og posted) Conf belongs to me Everyone reading this: Please know, my parents aren't mean, or bad :'] They just want the best for me when I get older.. Therefore they want me to do my best.
