“we’re trying to guess nafis crush” “apparently it’s someone in this class” “oh, you like him?” “then i hope he was lying when he said it wasn’t you.” and it doesn’t help that the girl i was always worried about him liking is in that class… i don’t think you get it. i mean, i wrote songs for him, made playlists, pin boards, a SHRINE. there’s other fish in the sea but i really REALLY want this fish and i can’t imagine wanting another. i probably will, but at this point i’ve never liked anyone how i like him. so that’s great because clearly he just wants to be friends. i don’t. i need to get over him me nd my friend were trying to think up bad things about him but there isn’t a single. one. and if she likes him and they get together. oh my god. I don’t think i could ever handle that i might have to switch schools or something. oh my god. i like him so. SO much. clearly he doesn’t feel the same and i can’t even blame him because she’s so much prettier than i am and the nicest person alive. so there’s that. i liked him for almost 8 months. eight freaking months where he was literally everything i did and the air i breathed but no turns out just because someone’s friends cheer when you walk away and he gets your attention all the time and always asks you what you got on every test ever doesn’t mean he likes you, duh, are you stupid kai? should i just tell him atp. “hi nafi i know you prob like ava but i really really like you so i just need to get it out and um yeah! please never speak to me again now” sounds good. ugh he’s so perfect i hate him so much
