- Noticed - I despise all of it the world I'm in the world I'm not in the person I've become I hate it all the stuff you won't let me do the actions that keep me up at night the little things I notice it your shift in tone your slow look of judgement your hand moving away I can tell when you hate my presence when I've done too much when I'm blind But its torturing if I don't notice it if I miss a sign if I'm too absorbed I want to notice it all but will it be overwhelming? Nonsense. I'm just selfish I notice when I complain too often when I sob it into words when you lose momentum when you don't care anymore I notice too much about myself how stupid I am how manipulative disgusting I'm disgusting I notice when I weird them out when I've become worse I notice the whispers about me People say its emotional intelligence but I'm not intelligent so how is it possible to notice? It's just that bad It's become frequent my flickers of numbness before, you begged now, you only ask I notice when your pupils dilate when your tone changes but I also notice when you scooch away and leave me behind Sometimes I don't and ruin the mood and gross you out for not reading the room I wish I could notice I wish I couldn't I despise it all the world I'm in The world I can't see Nothing's noticeable anymore
i cant do it anymore i like the thumbnail though also this isnt to any specific person I despise all of it the world I'm in the world I'm not in the person I've become I want to notice it all but will it be overwhelming? Nonsense. I'm just selfish People say its emotional intelligence but I'm not intelligent so how is it possible to notice? It's just that bad It's become frequent my flickers of numbness before, you begged now, you only ask
