Just me talking to myself

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Ohbdon't mind me I'm just talking to myself because there's no one I think of who wants to talk to me. At least irl And I always wonder if my friends here on Scratch will get tired of hearing me talk about random topics Oh and it would probably fill their inbox So yeah I'm talking alone Yesterday I watched Portugal's game in the World Cup. We scored quickly, but then we relaxed and Congo managed to equalize. Nugget and Hazel went to Churro's house to watch the game together. I'd also like to invite them to the next one, but we have the prom that night, and even if there wasn't one, it probably wouldn't work. Ohhh talking about the prom It's going to be my first prom... before you ask, no, I don't have a date. Penguin (my bestie) is going with Churro and Hazel is going with July (I'm a little bit mad at her right now). Nugget doesn't have a partner. Hazel tried to convince us to go together just as friends, but we've been our class's favorite ship for 5 years. We'd get teased a lot if we went together, even as friends. I'm going to wear a dark blue dress with one shoulder off! I bought some sandals the other day (for prom and summer) and my mom gave me a pretty necklace (silver with a blue stone) as a gift for finishing 9th grade. I look better in gold jewelry (my mom knows this perfectly well, she likes seeing me in gold as much as I do) but the dress had some silver parts so it matched. I'm excited for the prom! I think you can tell that lol I'm not sure if this is, in part, a vent. I'm feeling a bit sad because of something my (girl) friends did a few days ago, on Saturday. The problem is that I have extra classes this week because of my Portuguese and math exams, so I had to be with them. But I kept my distance a little, trying not to talk to them too much. I mean, I'm not angry with Penguin or Sarah, I'm a little hurt, but that's life. I can't just avoid them. Much less Penguin. But I'm still very hurt. VERY VERY HURT. Anyways I feel lonely, you know? The worst part is that I'm not alone. It almost feels like my brain is hurting me on purpose. It's confusing. But it seems like my irl friends don't want to talk to me. At least not online. It seems like they're dismissing me, avoiding me... but when others send a message, it's immediately... I think I'm tired of talking to myself. But what can I do I want a hug AGAIN. I need a hug. I love hugs but nobody seems to like me. At least not enough to hug me. ... But yeah no one LIKES me If someone liked me, they wouldn't have sidelined me If someone liked spending time with me, I wouldn't be or even feel alone I need to get a diary-