sometimes I sit and wonder if you still think of me the same way I do. I told my mom about us. she thinks we were a good couple, I think she knew we were dating, she probably did, but she was happy for us. I miss you so much. I would do anything to see you again. I've come to realize I'll always love you. sometimes I even cry because nothing could change how inlove I still am with you. I cant believe we used to HATE each other. that was so dumb, we would make fun of each other, we were so dumb back then. until we realized we had feelings for each other.. what a coincidence we caught feelings for each other at the same time. I think I liked you way before tho.. the days you would come to my apartment and knock on my window for me to come outside and we could talk, those meant EVERYTHING to me. what we had was real. I know it was. no one can tell me otherwise. I miss you so much. the night you came to say goodbye, was the night that broke something in me. I know you had to go. I tried to stay as long with you as I could. I really tried. but you had to go. we said our goodbyes, and gave one last hug. I tried not to cry. I watched as you walked away, thinking "so we are breaking up like this?.." that one hurt. I hope one day we find each other again, and we can finish our ending properly when the time comes. I didn't want our relationship to end like that. the next day at school, I cried so much because I thought you were going to be there. but you weren't. I remember looking at your empty desk and thinking of you. my dear J. oh how I miss you every single day. one day we will find each other again okay ? even if it isn't in this life , we will come up on eachother one day. I will pray everyday that I find you again. I will even swim across the whole ocean just to be by your side. (I cant swim). that's how much I love you.. I hope your doing well though. I wish you the best. until we meet again J.
