Summer

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For some reason I don't know why life is so empty devoid of flavor useless it feels like everything's a movie and all I can do is watch I hate this feeling weakness tiredness being everly so vulnerable it sickens me without my friends it's as if I can't function like a regular person would I hate this feeling weakness tiredness choosing not to eat not that I'm not hungry but for some reason I cant do it the food sickens me and all I can do is eat snacks the fridge is empty even though it is indeed full why must you yell at me so much? why does it hurt more? why do I all of a sudden feel like I am indeed a bad person? why do the thing once found joy in make me even more bland? I hate this feeling weakness tiredness crying for you one night I just cried I couldn't explain how much I, yes I, missed you without you I feel like I can control everything but now there is nothing like I am a giant living among ants like I know the future yet can't bring myself to stop it I hate this feeling weakness tiredness not knowing Why do I sit there for hours and hours doing nothing? I don't know why do I feel so empty inside? I don't know why, yet again, does this feel unreal? I don't know maybe because I did something wrong maybe because I deserve this maybe because I don't see the joy in life as I used to I could go on and on and on more and more yet I would still be here writing I hate this feeling weakness tiredness having bad things happen why did she do that to me? I feel she didn't mean it but it still hurts why do I feel as if it's my fault? it's not mine but I can't shake the feeling they said to forgive to learn to love so why can't I do that? why is it so hard to forget? and accept her why does my body ache drain or energy want to run away when I see her? why do I wish she would get off of me? Why do I wish she never found me? I hate this feeling this feeling of summer