life is hard.

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[vent project btw] ohhh noooo the funny guy is turning edgy again from life problems ohhh noooo okay anyways yea this is a vent project so im cutting the crap here. school is hard. life is hard. im struggling with coping with both my animation career here and my academic prowess. i know i should obviously be focusing on schoolwork, but even that gets difficult time to time, im taking another college course and an honors geometry summer school, so i have little time to focus on my genuine interests no one cares about. im probably overreacting but i think im a disgrace. i dont serve any other purpose in life other than to do so. i of course dont wanna do bad things to myself. i just dont perceive myself as important, or someone that matters. i was never popular. i was never successful. i never had many friends. i dont think ill ever be good enough. im a waste. im a disappointment to my family. i know i could be doing better, but im living the way i am here, awfully. no one really cares about me here either. or my interests. whenever im slightly different, i just get kicked out of everything. no one will talk to me. no one understands me. even geeks or nerds at school dont talk to me, and trust me, that hurts like hell. knowing youre rock bottom, that no one cares about you, understands you, or sympathizes with you. knowing youre truly alone in this world. hell, i could probably go missing and no one would notice. no one even knows about me here. all my projects suck. im a terrible animator. im a joke. my account constantly just goes downhill after im inactive. i chronically rely on outdoing myself and posting big projects just so i could be renowned for like a month max. people dont care about ME. or my self-esteem. it gets harder and harder to keep going. and if i take a break, even a resting day, or a day to focus on school work, more and more people will forget about me. i fall behind on both things either way. and i know all those comments in my projects arent true. no one cares. no one will ever care. they only know me just from my animation skills, and im not even good at that for gods sake. everyone is better than me. anyone who can make a scratch account can be better than me. im only known as a loser. thats all ill probably ever be. im still trying to cope with that. and no, im not gonna cope by getting a gf, girls suck, they have cooties and stuff which is gross. you can clearly tell the crap tossing is back, its one of the ways i cope with my issues. okay thanks for listening or whatever none of you care about me anyway since im only just a "decent" animator to you guys, right? okay.