Future of Screech

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I am @Screech_778 and to not waste any time... I'M QUITTING. Well, not fully?? Look my head is freaking going bazookers right now. I've come to a conclusion that I should stop doing this. I thought about this at the beginning of the month. The original plan was to slam out projects and woo hoo get so many views. Not that it's a delusional idea, but unfortunately you should never plan stuff. A deep lesson I learned within maybe the past year or so is that when you do plan things, you end up setting a dumb expectation for yourself. When you fail to meet the goal, you start to doubt yourself, scold yourself. It's a terrible position to be in. I've learned a lot of lessons recently. Wish I learned them a little more light but being brutally straight forward is sometimes more effective for certain people. Anyways I'm getting off topic. I thought it'd be a good idea to quit this November. Now my idea, or really my reality is now I'm going to quit but stay on here if that makes sense? To put it simply, I started YouTube. I hid this from people to test myself. Hypothetically speaking, if I have 0 following, am I anything at all? The answer is yes. As I said before, a lesson I learned this year and kinda the year before is anything is possible. You just have to decide that. The results I got from YouTube with minimal effort has been incredible. I have only been experimenting. If I actually tried and gave some effort, what would it be like? 3 months ago, I asked God to put me on the correct path. You know what intuition is? Intuition is God's way of speaking to you. 8 billion people, 1 voice. How does he have the time to have a chat with every person? He doesn't, so intuition slips into your mind. In some ways, God's been nagging at me Everytime something needs to be done. I did ask to be on the correct path, ask and you receive. But the nagging has been so constant, I'd not be allowed to sleep because almost like a boot kicking me, I would wake up thinking about what if I start this channel? I would speak like I'm wide awake, not sleepy at all despite it being 3:33 am. Time goes on and I start questioning my beliefs..."why am I doing this?" This, meaning scratch. Well, to gain popularity! This is respectfully, torture. The amount of strain I put on myself just even pushing 1 somewhat decent project out respectfully, time wasted. Time wasted is the theme that keeps ringing in my ear. What the heck have I ever done that was...."meaningful" "inspirational" "unlike anything else"? The sad thing is, no one does anything meaningful. 99% of the world doesn't. I am sorta quitting. I will be making video trailers on here, leading you to watch the full video on the channel. Literally everything I'm going to do will lead you to where my channel is. But I'll still be active in comments and stuff. I'm here to talk, that's really all though. This isn't paying me to put content on here which is why I even started to question why I'm still here. The more time I spend on here, that's another second of my time fading into nothing. This is probably the realest me you'll get. Honestly I got so much more ranting to do but I already did so much. I'll just upload creepy projects of me yapping about my thoughts. I'm thankful for anyone who's read through all this or at least skipped to this part. I always give advice to people and they shower me with compliments telling me how good it is, well now I'm taking the advice y'all have given me since the very start of my journey. Become a YouTuber. What am I waiting for? I'm prepared for this to take a few years. That's fine, better late than never. Here's my deepest advice I can give you in return for what you have given me. Dreams do come true. You're just forced to believe that it's supposed to stay in your head, that's why they call it a dream. Whatever you truly desire is already yours, it just might not be here yet. Have some Sasuke type determination "I'll make my dream a reality" type of mentality.