What does it mean if I can bond with strangers more than people at my school? So, most of you might not know, but I'm a theatre kid. So I went to a theatre camp in a nearby town for the summer. I was only there for 3 hours a day, and nobody there was from my school. I loved it there. The people were so genuinely nice. Some were even actively talking about my fandoms and it was so wonderful to talk to people about practically everything. I felt comfortable talking to strangers, but they felt like people I have known my whole life. Even the people I didn't talk to much, we could be doing the most random thing and we would all be laughing. It was so wonderful, I can't explain it. It might be just because I found my people out in the wild, but I miss them. The camp was only 2 weeks, and these people were some of the sweetest people I have meet in my life. I am the only theatre kid in my grade. At least one that actually does theatre. Yes, there's plenty in the older grades, but it's still weird talking to them and I don't know why. It's lonely, I feel like I can't talk to them about my hobbies, my favorite things, I can't even talk to them about musicals. I don't know why? I'm so confused? My friends at my school have changed my life. They are the first group of friends I have actually felt like myself and was invited to act like it. I love them so much. But I just can't talk to them about acting or anything like that. Maybe it's because I'm extremely extroverted, and I don't care what people think of me that much. But it still pains me. I can't even talk to the people in my class. They are all so rude sometimes. Even the Hamilton fans. Some are just so main character centered, it's hard to talk to them. I didn't make cheer this year. I have been doing cheer for at least 4 years. It hurt the first time I didn't make it for 8th grade. But I was told I wasn't good enough again? Even though I practiced much more and the people that made it were annoying and didn't even care about it? They made it just because they had influence and it hurts. But.....I don't even feel sad? Those people were so mean, I felt left out, the coach had favorites, my group was always neglected, and sometimes I feel like it was my fault. Maybe it was because I wasn't popular, or just didn't fit in? I feel so conflicted. The people at the theatre camp, I had found my people there. I want to go back. I miss them. I miss my friends. Are the people at my school just bad? My friends are great, but everyone else is so...so.....I can't even describe it. What does this mean? I found myself having the time of my life with strangers, and I can't even stand being near my classmates for too long. This probably isn't that even a big problem, but if anyone can help me understand this, that would be great.
