ive been kinda miserable but ive sort of just been keeping it in me for a while so i made this project to like vent about stuff i could think of school has been a pain for a while. kept me from doing stuff i wanted to do, forced me to hang out with people who hurt me and overall was just a place i do not hold dearly. its over now but im moving on to a middle school where ill have to make new friends which i dont really know how to so that sucks a lot. speaking of demotivation to work on stuff i still have that. i have so many ideas and so much stuff i wanna do but i never get to it cause im lazy and dont feel like it in the moment, and when i do work on something its short and doesnt turn out like i wanted it to be my parents dont seem to really understand me or take my problems seriously and when there is a problem they just try to act like it does not exist and that bothers me a lot serbia in general sucks a lot. our police are violent, everyones racist and homophobic and i want to get out of here. theres a guy in one of my friend groups who just straight up said the n word, and its not like the other guys are racist or smth, but everyone just like, immediately forgave him and just act like nothing happen??? like, the guys 11 years old and i dont think he means any actual harm but still thats very irresponsible of them and everyone else in the friend group and it just makes me pretty uncomfortable also same friend group has a guy who gets angry way too easily over mundane things like. like that one image of the guy posting the spongebob gif on the cord and someone taking it seriously. i mean i understand that like you dont like that type of humor, its not for everyone, but you dont gotta start hurling insults at whoever posts that image and make it personal when someone calls you out. no one else takes it seriously, its a joke, get over it and ignore it, dude. i tried being nice at first and taking it light but the dude just wouldnt calm down, then when my friend, basically the reason im even in the friendgroup at the first place, said we were obnoxious. i told him to not get into the argument cause he had nothing to do with it. idk what happened next cuz i got really angry and didnt want to deal with it ive been thinking about quitting the scratchverse defenders. while i do hold so many good memories and while the people ive met are some of the best and nicest ive ever met, ive been struggling with this for a while, about a year? maybe longer, idk. when i started, i was young and stupid, and i just, did things, without thinking about how it would affect the overall story. and while i was growing up and learning, i wanted to make it better, make it the best that i possibly could. and i have. sorta. ive made a story that connects, made characters i like and something that im proud of overall. but ive been struggling to connect the story i made to the overall story. and while i have been able to piece some parts together, overall it's all just unnecessary and doesnt really matter to the plot. yes, i know, even after like 3 and a half years since my first mega collab i struggle with this. im still not 100% sure on this decision, but i dont see it getting any better. uh thats mostly it idk man go home ten feet twenty the flower man
