I lost a friend he took his own life but I fear it was my fault because I want online for days on end and I knew something was wrong he was always posting about how he couldn’t take it how it was to hard but I never said anything what kind of friend says nothing then when I came back online the last text sent was just my name he thought I was d3@d if I was online that day if i answered if he knew i was alive would he still be here could I of helped him would he still be here if. I helped him I was just online that day answered his text it’s all my fault why couldn’t I of been there for him I miss him more than I like to admit I told my mum she said “he might of just lied to you he could still be alive” but the last text I have from that contact “where you ###s friend” I say yes he’s my best friend “I’m sorry to tell you he took his own life last night I’m sorry to tell you” I don’t know how Many times I told his mother I was sorry for her lost I was in tears that whole day I locked myself in my room for a week I still blame myself I miss him a lot it’s not the same without his daily texts even just a “hi” is all I need one last time to say goodbye I never even got to say goodbye the last thing I told him was who my crush was but that was a lie because if I was being honest I think I liked him and I think he liked me if I told him would he still be here I won’t even be mad if I get a text saying “hey I’m still alive I lied” I would be happy I miss him so much what I would do to talk to him again I want to be where he is if I was online maybe he thought I was gone left him that’s why he left me why he left everybody but I miss him so much
I miss you.
