would make a forum but I’m lazy :peace emoji: tw for caps “ PARANOIA “ - a Flesh application 001. ABOUT ME - hello ! I’m Adrian and/or Kaol (I’m indecisive so idrc what you call me) and I am genderfluid and greygender ! my preferred pronouns change every day, but I don’t feel a very strong connection to them so I personally don’t mind any pronouns :] I’m your average highschooler that loves writing and drawing, both my favorite pastimes ! I work hard to improve my art, and I love to spend my extra time reading ! 002. PAST CHARACTERS - not quite sure if this is required anymore, but here we go ! Firefly - Firefly was the child of two leaders of the first loner group to earn a tile ! he lived in the Guild of Roses until about eight moons, in which bug then left to move to flurryclan, since it interested bug. GoR eventually died out, and Firefly gained a lot of lore. bug eventually died at around 30 moons so I could have my next character. Ephemeralpearl - one of my personal favorites ! she was the daughter of Snapdragonstar, and she had pretty decent stats and a great life. she had three partners; Ruby, Clover, and Dusty, all of whom lived in flurryclan. she had a pretty uneventful life, but I adored writing her and she now resides in the dark forest at around 50-60 moons. Reflectionear - god, I feel so bad about her. I hit a rough point in life during her’s, so I wasn’t as active with her as I wish I could be. she had a little bit of a story, but not much. I eventually killed her off because of this and my lack of activity, and waited a few months before getting my next character. Snapdragonkit - I loved him soo much. he lived in flurryclan, and unfortunately it was during the time where it was slowly dying out. he had great lore and a lot of relationships, but he unfortunately died to weekly kit. Merlincrown - my silly !! he was one of my most recents and THIS guy had a lot of lore as well. as he aged, I feel like I slowly distanced myself from his character on accident, and it was genuinely a struggle to write him when I didn’t understand now how he would act. I killed him off at 20 moons, but I do still love him. Daggerwingkit - I know this is my sixth, but he’s also my current. I feel like I just. haven’t connected to his character at all. I was originally really excited to write him, but for some reason it just wasn’t .. working? now it’s kind of a chore to roleplay with him and I genuinely don’t think I can continue with him. I usually don’t kill my characters off until they’re at least warriors, but I feel like he’s going to be an exception. yeah, I know, it’s kinnnddd of bad that I want to remove a kit character, especially one so young, but I just. don’t know how to continue to write him. If this affects my application in anyway, I apologize but yeah. /gen /srs 003. ACTIVITY LEVEL - while I’m not active the whole day, I do make sure to always at least check my messages. since it’s summer break, I have a lot of empty time on my hands and I really want to be able to focus on a character I genuinely enjoy writing, which I feel is the case with Flesh. on a scale of 1-10, I’d say I’m a decent 8. when I’m not roleplaying, I am interacting with the community or drawing :] 004. RP/WRITING EXPERIENCE - I started writing when I was a very young age. like 6 maybe? I fell in love with it, and have loved it ever since. I only started roleplaying about three years ago, and since then I have improved so much ! I’ve been on scratch for maybe two years now, in generations for about that long, and I’d say I’m pretty experienced? 005. WHY I WANT FLESHKIT - ohhhh myyyy goodddddd when I saw him ideas immediately just started popping into my mind. like omg I’m not kidding. just by looking at him I fell in love with both his design and the personality I had thought of, so I’m really excited to see how his life might play out ! and I find it really interesting that he’s named after a god (though I know he won’t have any plot relevance) ! 006. FUTURE IDENTITY - this I feel like is what I’m most uncertain about. There are so many options that could fit him, but I think he’s going to go by he/any/all pronouns in adulthood. as a kit, he/him, and as an apprentice he’ll go by they/them until settling on the ones stated above. he prefers being called a male, but he’ll honestly not care. - sexuality wise, this was easy. Flesh will most likely be heavily demiromantic, omniromantic, polyamorous, and asexual. 007. FUTURE PERSONALITY - simple : (+) intelligent, cautious, clever (=) paranoid, distrusting (-) ambitious, easily angered, self-absorbed - detailed : Flesh is the kind of feline who knows what he wants in life and has a plan to get it. to him, learning and making plans comes easily, and he uses this to his advantage. he especially makes sure to take care of where he treads, analyzing where he steps to make sure he doesn’t end up making a fool of himself. cont.
- cleverness is another of his traits, and he’s quick to come up with a solution to a possibly disastrous situation. he may come off a bit snobby and high-and-mighty, his ego a slight bit inflated, but as an adult this isn’t as evident. however, he’s quite distrusting, and doesn’t allow many to actually get close to him. he’s actually quite paranoid, and fears others are always after him. this might stem from an event in his younger years, or simply be apart of his anxiety. he becomes a very ambitious feline as he ages, setting his sights on deputy. he comes to believe that, should he be promoted, he (and he supposes his family), will be treated better (not that they aren’t, he merely believes strongly that his family should be like royalty). he is very easily to anger, and he has a tendency to lash out more than he means to. - as a kit, Flesh will be a lot more friendly and eager to play. however, as his anxiety begins to develop as he grows, this will morph into the personality I have shown above. 008. PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION - Flesh is a large, fluffy, muscular kitty with large limbs. his face is a mixture of white and various shades of grey; most noticeably in the spiky fluff of fur atop his head and the claw-like markings surrounding one of his blue eyes. a large, lion-like mane of dark grey is splayed out over his shoulders, and a strange, white, cat-like marking covers the middle. his front half is a light grey and white, with a few darker-shades of color making various tendril-like streaks. As we near his end, we can see that it shifts to a darker grey that dominates his hind legs, the white showing the tendril pattern once more. his tail is primarily dark grey, the same as on his hind legs; interrupted only by the occasional white streak. 009. RESEARCH - I will be giving him anxiety ! I personally have diagnosed anxiety and will be basing him off both my personal experiences and research. - when people think of someone having anxiety, they often tend to imagine a shy, awkward character that stays to themselves. In Flesh’s case, he is quite the opposite. when he gets anxious, he gets bolder. more reckless. paranoid. while he does sometimes distance himself from others, he becomes more outgoing the more anxious he is. one of his biggest fears is seeming weak, and this motivates his anxiety to turn into frustration and anger. he tends to lash out and say things he doesn’t mean when feeling this way, which can often lead to ruined relationships and broken hearts. he’s also afraid of being a failure, and this can make him reckless. he’ll leap into battle without a second’s hesitation if it meant he would be seen as powerful and helpful, despite his worries for his own life. when in rather bad bouts of anxiety, he can sometimes hallucinate or hear things that aren’t really there. this can lead him to believing that someone said something bad when in reality nothing was said to him at all. panic attacks can sometimes happen, and when it does with Flesh, symptoms can include rapid breathing, seeing/hearing things (as explained) right above, nausea, and fatigue. his anxiety won’t necessarily affect him a lot on the outside; he’ll exude a powerful, strong exterior while his interior is really just a wrecked, worried little kitten. his anxiety will begin developing later in life (probably mid-apprenticeship), and during kithood there will be little to no signs of how bad it may be in the future. 010. PLANS - I plan to grind a ton of exp. I have the time, and I’m really excited to write him ! I’m hoping for a highrank, but I’m not sure. - might get him either a swan or the lizard companion. maybe mouse in the early stages if not swan .. - either a heartbreaker or someone who gets their heart broke 011. TRIVIA - ts : Flagpole Sitta (tw for cursing) I feel like multiple parts fit his future personality, and it’s a reallyyyy good song - family dynamics : siblings: his siblings are one of the few who Flesh feels understands him. he loves them fiercely and would die to protect them. 1. Your user, nickname/pref name, pronouns & anything about you that you'd like me to know! 2. ALL of your previous gens characters, and how long they lived (plus extra info if you think it'll help ur chances). Unless you have more than five, then just list the most recent five. 3. Your activity level (number of threads/day or week on average) 4. Rp/writing experience :) 5. Name of the kit you want and why you want them. 6. Kit's potential future gender + pronouns. 7. Kit's potential future romantic orientation and sexuality 8. Kit's potential future personality. (include a detailed and simple description) 9. Kit's physical description. 10. Research (if applicable) 11. Plans for the kit's future. 12. Other (trivia, family opinions, etc.) 13. IF you are rejected, would you like to know why? (yes or no)
