stop. dont you dare talk about yourself like that. so many people on scratch and in real life care about you way more than you think. so, so many people here are going to miss you. ive felt like this before, when my old best friend switched schools. its hard at first, but it gets easier. as for the hiatus, i hope you can recover from this loss and things start to get better. taking a break in this situation is the right decision. <3