I thought I would feel more excited I haven’t really done much to prepare (other than a few things I will not discuss) But yeah I just feel like I’ve lost interest in everything I don’t do anything anymore I’m barely on this account anymore and I’ve been procrastinating everything else I haven’t been drawing I just wish I could go back to last year when I was so excited to participate and my parents actually “allowed” it But now this year they decided to not support me because “I should be using my time to get productive things done” It’s not like this a new thing, they only support me when it conveniences them But that’s pretty much how everyone feels about how I spend my time Maybe that’s the problem What am I even doing this for Everything feels so empty and meaningless Even Artfight, which I’ve been looking forward to for the past eleven months It’s like the closer I get to things I enjoy the more everything fades And now I just feel nothing I’m so tired I don’t want to do anything anymore Life just feels so empty I just feel lonelier every day Maybe if I just let Artfight start and send some drawings to people I’ll feel better Hopefully
