⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ❝ ON THE EDGE OF FOREVER ❞ » SUPERPOWER « 0:58 ─〇───── 3:02 ⇄ ◃◃ ⅠⅠ ▹▹ ↻ ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ broken and bruised, what’s left to lose~ ❞ ABOUT ME: Hello there! I’m @sodatabs-and-poetry, an experienced procrastinator, scratch doomscroller and hyperfixationist! I’m practically what you could call an expert in all three… and still unsure whether that’s a good thing or not. I’m super excited to apply for Howlingkit! ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ here on the edge of forever~ ❞ ACTIVITY LEVEL: At the moment, I’ve been super active on scratch due to school holidays, however during school I’m obviously less active. Despite this, I manage to log on at least once every two days, and often more. Sometimes I need to skip visiting scratch since I’m busy, but I usually hop on daily to check any mail I have, and, if I have time, check on my friends’ scratch accounts. Overall, I’d rate myself at a solid 7-8 for activity, and an 8 for consistency. ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ if i never leap, i’ll never fly~ ❞ ROLEPLAY HISTORY: I’ve owned two characters from the roleplay Generations (Asterwish and Monarchkit of FlurryClan) who both now reside in StarClan. I’ve never owned a cat in TFCRP, and hope Howlingkit can be my first character here! :) ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ bl33d, or sacrifice~ ❞ WHICH KIT I’M APPLYING FOR: I’m applying for the wonderful Howlingkit! I absolutely adore their design! Also, daily dose of wholesomeness, but your artstyle’s amazing. ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ fight until the final hour, pain is my superpower~ ❞ FUTURE GENDER AND SEXUALITY: [ please note that this may change as I further explore Howlingkit’s character through roleplay. ] Howlingkit identifies as entirely non-binary from early kithood, choosing to fully dispose of their assigned gender at birth and use they/them pronouns. After bearing this throughout most of their apprenticeship, Howling transitions to they/star and sticks with it until around mid-warrior age when they switch to they/star/sky, reflecting where their loyalties lie: SkyClan, their home. As for sexuality, Howling believes that they are entirely heterosexual until late apprenticeship when they discover pansexual and panromantic identities exist. They quickly swap to this and soon after find that they’re platoniromantic as well. ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ keep your head up high~ ❞ PERSONALITY AND HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT KIA’S ABAND0NMENT: [ i’ve always wanted a cat with a somewhat - villain arc.. not entirely evil, yet not entirely good either… here ya go! ] Howlingkit learnt to deceive from the start. Betrayed by their very mother, Howling hid behind a smiling face all the time, trying to hide the hurt that Kia had caused them. Deep down, he was jealous; why did all the other kits in the nursery have wonderful, brilliant, /caring/ mothers? Mothers were supposed to be kind, compassionate, /there for you whenever you needed them/. Instead, Howling had been thrown into the wilderness, left for d3ad, probably, by a cat they’d barely even gotten to know. Why?, they wanted to know. Why did you leave me there, why did you put me apart from my siblings? All their kithood, reaching far into their apprenticeship, Howlingkit longed to talk to their mother at last, to get the answers he’d been waiting for forever. But at the same time, they weren’t sure that even if they got to meet with their mother again, that she would tell the truth, that she would even care enough to notice them, recognise their efforts and struggles. And so, Howlingkit never trusted anybody. A small voice inside of them always whispered that everybody would betray them someday. If their mother, the one who was supposed to take care of them forever and ever and ever had left, what was stopping anybody else? Wasn’t a mother’s love supposed to triumph over everything? Loss, grief, pain… apparently not. Crumbling under two identities - one that loves their mother after everything, and one that hates her beyond imagination, beyond what words could describe, Howlingkit smiles. One half of Howlingkit aspires to be a great warrior, yearns to impress their mother even if they’ll never see the end result. The other half despises her so much that they train, fueled by the goal to destroy her very being, her existence. ( continued in N + C )
So Howlingkit trains, day and night, forcing themself into the expectation of being absolutely perfect. The overachiever; perfectionist; to fly past the other apprentices and soar, at last, free - to train so hard that they were consumed entirely by their work and never had to think about Kia again. Ever. It worked, for a little while, but distraction can only accomplish so much. They analysed cats - one might even say overanalysed - keeping notes on everything they did; they learned to read body language - the way this cat’s tail twitched when they lied; the way that cat never looked them in the eyes. Every word, every action, meticulously burned into memory. They’d suffered through so much that they barely knew who the real Howlingkit is themself; could barely differentiate between right and wrong. And yet, this cracked, broken cat just kept smiling; a facade of happiness and enthusiasm for each new challenge. They didn’t know which variation of Howlingkit was the real, genuine one. They were someone who’d acted, put on a front, for so long, become so good at it, that it had almost become a new identity. Energetic and overenthusiastic? Or perennially sensitive to anything? Guarded and paranoid? Or, really, perhaps just broken beyond repair… HOW OTHERS SEE THEM [ + ] enthusiastic, playful, energetic, curious [ = ] overachiever, perfectionist, observant [ - ] vengeful, loyal, ambitious HOW THEY REALLY ARE: [ + ] creative, patient, persuasive, efficient [ = ] analytical, observant, independent [ - ] judgemental, vengeful, manipulative, paranoid ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ run through rain or shine~ ❞ ROLEPLAY EXAMPLE: Howlingkit never cried. The water running down their face was the rain, not tears, they told themself unconvincingly. It had been so warm before; what happened to that? Where was… Mother? They were hungry… Surely she would’ve taken them somewhere nice and safe by now. Howling never really stayed out in a storm. Where was she? They shrivelled into a ball, shivering. The world went black. ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ can’t have sweet without the sour~ ❞ OTHER/FUTURE: Hmmm someone yeet a ping at me to do this. ⋆｡°· ☁︎°⋆ ﾟ ❝ pain is my superpower~ ❞ RANDOM IDEAS: collects pebbles, feathers and strange items
