Jul 03, 2026 .................................................................................. Dad said that my and my brother should do things the 1st time. that him and mom shouldn't need to repeat themselves. It's not my fault. My mind blocks thing out without me meaning to. I tried to clean my disgusting nasty room... Holy it's hard to get motivation. I ate more than normal td... I feel so nasty and gross for eating that much. Tmmr is a family dinner so I cant rlly avoid eating.. Wtv tho. I can't dress how I want to anymore ig. Mom says I dress like a boy, but that's how I want to dress. Comfortably. I'm not even comfortable being myself lol. Mom asks why I dont like to go to the pool. I go with her anyways to make her happy. I'm not comfortable in a swimsuit. God, I sound like an attention seeker rn. I wonder when I'll get better? Or even if I'll ever get better. ..................................................................................
