i have really bad attachment issues when it comes to friends along with getting close to people in general. like when i get close with someone or spend a lot of time with someone, i form an attachment of some sort and it rlly rlly rlly sucks because it feels like i obsess over that person :[ i had formed an attachment to my friend aleo + my other friend i will not be naming cuz she uses scratch as well ad i'm pretty sure i've formed one over a different friend. it sucks because i don't want to be like this, like weirdly attached and possessive over my friends?? ugh. like with my friend aleo, all i could think was like "oh that looks cool,,,,, i wonder if al would like it. " or " thats funny, im gonna tell al about it." but it wasnt just a small or random from time-to-time thing, it was constant and almost everyday, every minute, anytime something happened :[ its awful and ive seen that its a new habit of mine with another friend of mine :[ but i dont wanna be weird??? like idrk how to explain this :[ and i also dont have any feelings for them btw, like its only platonic obsession ? ? ? ??
