between the constant followbegging, arguing, bullying (sometimes to the point of conformity), h@rr@ssment, and other, more minor problems ive been seeing around here, it makes me really sad, sometimes almost to the point of crying. i h[no]e it, but unfortunately, the problem doesnt change if the problematic person doesnt change. someone admired by lots (@is_corn) isnt with us anymore... im losing more and more inspiration by the hour... virtually no one does my contests (not forcing!)... it all just makes me want to quit. but i like seeing a little happy and compliments sometimes, so im staying for now. if it gets worse (and i mean a lot worse), then i will quit. if it gets better... just assume what will happen. but for now, im not happy with the state of scratch right now, but not to the point of quitting. HOLY VENT
part 2 of 'how im feeling rn' (that got taken down bc of SH)
