So... My mom isn't rly happy w/ me rn (again) bc she watched some crazy mom explain everything bad about glitch shows, indie shows, etc. and my mom is all like "No. You're not watching that kind of stuff under my roof" even tho im old enough to watch that kind of stuff and its not like i quote bad stuff around my lil brother or anything ._. So...... she's gonna look through my laptops, phone, etc and put on blocksi or smth and start monitoring it like crazy and so idk what she's gonna think of scratch. she hates the idea of online social interaction so i highly doubt she'll be okay with it. Its kinda ironic, honestly, bc she told me once "If you're /so/ set on being a VAing or Animator then you should probably at least start acting on it." (thats the most support ive gotten about that topic but she didnt rly sound genuine when she said it X_X) and so thats what ive been doing! On Scratch, Ive been auding for VA roles, submitting animations for MAPs, i clearly have gotten my name /somewhat/ out there to have gotten over 200 followers just within a couple months (kinda was inactive on scratch for a little bit and just had, like, 30 or so followers until i started being on more) and i rly dont wanna lose this... i found my ppl. i found weirdos. makes me happy. she always has to take away what makes me happy. Also, im terrified for her to find out i go on yt a LOT bc she HATES yt (long story, reasonable reason tho tbh) but im not stupid, guys, i dont watch weird stuff... except for out of context HH vids- omg she's gonna FREAK when she finds out i watched those! SHES GONNA FREAK WHEN SHE FINDS OUT I WATCHED THE SHOW ITSELF X_X and i listen to the music, watch the VAs say stupid stuff... i wanna cosplay and she's gonna freak when she sees all the reference photos i have saved- oh my gosh- im so d3ad-
More in depth context?: And to think, this all started a couple minutes after I woke up, i went upstairs bc my mom wanted me to eat breakfast (as a lot of ppl know i dont like to eat ._. and thats not very healthy.) and she went on this whole lecture saying how she found a vid of some mom reviewing tadc ep 6, saying it wasnt kid friendly (like bro... okay? im old enough... im not 5 broski) and that one zooble line rly upset my mom and my mom didnt like how the ep was so heavily revolved around g*ns and so i was like "okay. if it makes you happy i just wont watch ep 6 anymore. that's fine." (wasnt fine but whatever i could live w/ out) and she was like "The fact you know /exactly/ which episode it was" i looked at her and said "There's only nine episodes! How the heck would i /not/ know which ep it was? I have a photographic memory!" And i sorta laughed in disbelief but she just repeated the whole "The fact you know..." thing and that rly bugged me. She's so petty istg. Literally yesterday she was getting after me (AGAIN) for taking so much time in my life to animate and so i closed my laptop and started staring at a wall and she was like "What are you doing?" And i told her "Welp. Can't use technology because you hate it. So i can't write script" (oh, context: NO I DONT HAVE PAPER. only like, two pieces of rly expensive watercoloring paper that im not using to write on lol) "So i cant animate. So i can't watch TV." and my mom was like "Draw" And i looked at her, grab a bunch of sketchbooks and explained to her all i do is draw when im not on a device or im in public and how i have art block and im running out of paper and i dont have a car or money to get some more (my dad drives the only car) and she just looked at me and was like "okay. stare at a wall then." then left. Guys im not being petty myself im being realistic- one cannot spend all her time drawing OCs, one must spend some time writing those OCs, converting them to digital, and animating them. Also, ONE NEEDS PAPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR GOSH DARN IT. Like, ik i say im on scratch all day but im rly not i just keep my laptop open and respond to messages when i get them. most of the time im listening to music, readin, or looking up smth if im not animating. My mom just only chooses to notice when im actually using my laptop to animate bc to her it "requires no talent or time" apparently :\ so yeah, not sure how much longer im gonna be able to use scratch. ill def use it when i get my school computer back tho bc school blocksi never lets my mom know i use scratch lol so... but im sad. (jeez... just a few more years then ill move outttttt but i need an actual job firstttttt so i can afford my own placeeeee)
