Why bother - a poem

Instructions

- Why bother - Day after day I put my headphones on line after line gets blended into the melody Night after night I stay up thought after thought why am I so pathetic Minute after minute I think of him dream after dream I miss him so much Hour after hour sludge by week after week I wasted my summer Its the same routine music missing wasting Its the same routine sending staying sketching Its the same routine scrolling regret numbing Every day I cycle through my mind Im weird Im horrible Im stupid Every day I cycle through my mind Im disgusting Im manipulative Im attention seeking Every day I cycle through my mind it shouldve happened I should cut WHY WONT YOU LET ME CUT Why bother its a sea Im drowning in oh wait, my problems arent worth it its just a puddle, Im sorry I overreacted Why bother its a tornado Im thrown around in oh wait, others have it worse its just a breeze, Im sorry I overreacted Why bother its the dirt Im buried beneath oh wait, I shouldnt complain its just a pot of soil, Im sorry I overreacted Its the same process I talk they beg I ignore Its the same process I text I wait you ignore Its the same process I tell I overdo they ignore Repeat it every day repeat it repeat it Repeat it every moment repeat it repeat it Repeat it every relapse repeat it repeat it When its the same thing every hour the same thoughts the same actions the same consequence When its the same thing every day the same morning the same afternoon the same midnight When its the same thing every week the same cycle the same pattern the same feeling Why bother? Why bother? ... Why bother...